Counting the days to PRO exam 3

Pagi tadi, ada mock exam surgery..
ada byk stations, 10 stations with 12 students in a group..
oh, it was soooooooo helpful..
sbb tau apa benda yg tak tau..
walaupn byk yg mmg tak tau, but at least..it helps a lot...

tp di kala ni..
rasa nk nangis sgt..
sbb byk benda tak baca n banyak lg yg tak tau..
yg dh baca pn ada yg dh xingat sgt..
huuu
amik buku ni, selak2...alamak, banyak sgt nye nak kena baca..letak tepi jap la
amik buku lain..selak2 lagi..haish, ni tak tau lg..banyak sgt tak baca lg kat buku ni..kang la baca..
amik lg buku lain...selak2 lg dan lg..oh, kena baca ke ni..?tp cm details je...tp ada je yg penah kena soal benda2 ni..tp cm susah je ni...nnt la..
at last, kepenatan menyelak2 je..dan amik keputusan nk tido la...

and i wonder, what am i doing these whole 5 years in medical school.............................................................

if only all these highlighted sentences were really read by me...
if only all these handwritten notes at the site of the paragraph can at least, ease my nerves~

but it cant..although the previous end block exams,i can feel a bit relieved to see benda2 yg di-highlight and tulisan2 bersepah2 pd notes2 ni..tp sekarang, smua ni wat saya makin kelam kabut...

and currently, listen to lagu radja - uma abah...