Arini, sehari lepas saya abis exam IM year 5..
Lega sbb exam dh selesai..tp asyik je palpitation sbb berdebar2 pikirkan result exam lepas ni..
pape pn, arini, ramai lagi kawan2 saya akan exam..
Jetul, Us, Qila, Azi, Wan Kd, Ciki aka Zila, Ani, Tas..
juga yg akan exam pagi ni tp saya dh kacau smlm..
all the best..dan jgn risau2..mst berjaya punya la ;) 

to all my frens yg exam arini, kita doakan korg smua berjaya.smoga smua nye senang2 belaka buat korg smua..moga2 doctors smua senyum je arini coz u all perform well :) i know u all can :)
to all my frens yg dh exam smlm, mari kita sama2 doa so that kali ni dan berikutnye, smua 10th batch lulus exam..
Insya Allah, kita semua akan berjaya bling bling ;)

ni saya dgb tak sabarnye sedang menunggu my beloved family nk dtg cni to fetch me..yeay :)
miss them sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much :)

saya suka :)

arini berborak and bergelak ketawa dgn lama nye with mama..
rindu sgt kat mama..nak aje rasanye terbang skrg gak n jumpa mama..
i miss her sooo much..lagi lak masa2 cm skrg ni..
i just want to go back home and hug her tight~

tp ada urusan yg belum slesai..
exam..
kena belajar rajin2 sbb exam dh dekat sgt2..
kena jd bersemangat..sbb byk yg dh dijanjikan...
kena rajin..sbb ada org y lebih rajin, sampai tak terkejar saya..
kena rajin !!
ye saya dh jadi rajin sikit..yeay!!

owh, tp skrg musim ujan..
ramai yg tak sihat..
adik saya di gombak xberapa sihat.. (dik, awak dh ok x..?jg diri leklok tau..)
kawan2 ramai yg tak sihat..
even yg baru je baik demam dh mula tak berapa sihat smula...
haish...ciannye..

kena jaga kesihatan elok2 ya..jgn demam2 sgt tau..

exam dh dekat ni :)

and esok ada yg akan ada shortcase..
gudluck n all the best :) smoga berjaya k..

"Kumasih lagi setia
Biarpun takdir mencabar kita terpisah
Kumasih lagi di sini..."

Saya sorg2 melilau2 di alam maya ni..tgk2 perfume yg best..
owh kalau la banyak duit di kala ini ~
saya mau perfume dgn banyak nye..
mau smua perfume yg ada kat pasaran..
mau smua..
tp masalah nye...saya takde duit yg bnyk..sob sob..
xpe..xpe..nnt dh ada duit yg byk = dh keja..saya akan beli perfume byk2 sepuas hati :P
hehe
owh, di kala ini, teringat cik mucuk..bila mau bershopping ni..?
(saya patut belajar sbb exm dh dekat..tp..tp..)

td cik mucuk makan ngan akak n hazri...uhu..saya mau ikut gak!!!
nnt dh dpt scholar, kita makan ramai2 eh..?hehe

I am listening to Jamal's songs..
ahaks,,
saya tergoda sungguh2..
hmm..mmg sgt2 suka dgn his songs..

this one particular song..
saya suka..masa dgr dalam kreta, a newer version, adalah sgt berbeza dgn yg saya jumpa n download from internet..
tp cmne pn, i like sgt lagu ni..
sila la fhami lagu ni..sebab ia sgt best..

Kenangan Tak Bisa Dilenyapkan~

Semakin kau diam
Semakin kau cengkam
Perasaanku
Tidakkah tersimpan
Rasa kasih padaku
Walau secebis

Kenangan
Tak bisa kau lenyapkan
Walau bagaimana
Kau cuba memberi alasan
Kerana ku tahu
Itu hanya dusta
Adakah di hati
Terasa penyesalan
Menyintaiku

Apakah aku tak setaraf
Dengan apa yang kau inginkan
Jika itu yang benar
Biar aku hentikan
Desakan ini
Kerana kupunya harga diri

Ku takkan merintih
Walau dada pedih
Membakar 

hehe..makin banyak la lagu jamal dlm laptop saya ni :P

Kerisauan lg..haisyh~

recently my posts smua nye pasal kerisauan saya ttg hal2 di rumah,kan..?
huuu..sori..but i dont know cara lain utk lepaskan rasa yg terpendam ni..
tp arini, i just have to write this down..

saya rasa sgt2 risau pasal mama saya kat umah tu..
sgt2 risau..
td mama ckp mama dh pening2 kepala, rasa cm berpusing2..
uhu..kitaorg xpernah wat mama smpai cmni sekali OK budak2 kecik!!
smpai ati korg treat mama akak yg sebaik tu smpai begitu sekali!!
saya sgt2 marah sbnrnye ni..smpai kan i can feel yg saya tgh menggeletar while typing this, sbb terpaksa kawal smua kemarahan ni..all these pent-up anger..

Tolong lah adik2..(and these are not meant for my 3 little sisters coz they are angels, they would never do such things to mama, at least takde la smpai wat mama jd sakit kpala sgt2 sbb pikirkan mereka...)
please la..korang jgnla wat cmtu pd mama akak..
akak mmg kesian pd korg..
tp, akak lebih sygkan mama akak..
kalau mama sakit kepala lg lepas ni sbb korg....
hmmm..akak akan tarik balik smua yg akak dh pernah bercadang nk wat for korg..
if u ever berani wat pape yg wat mama akak risau, siap la korg..
and i really mean it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(owh, mmg saya kelihatan seperti org yg xberapa betul di sini..sbb marahkan budak2 kecik indirectly, dalam blog pulak tu..bukan nye budak2 tu bole baca pn..tp...at least, if lepas ni benda yg sama berulang, akak dh ada bukti yg korg berperangai tak best sblm ni...)

Dadali Band : Disaat Aku Mencintaimu- membebel2 pasal lagu ni :P

Reading adik's blog is like ubat pada kerinduan ni
huu..sbb adik baru je balik ke gombak minggu lpas, and she was at home for about a few weeks so, when i read about the things at home yg dia tulis (pasal wat umah baru kiki kiko..) it was such a penawar for me..
tp, at the same time, rasa rindu sgt nak balik umah..

but, benda yg saya nak tulis kat sini ialah ttg apa yg adik tulis kat sana..
ttg lagu favourite saya pd masa ni..Dadali, Di Saat Aku Mencintaimu...
huu...
Quoting from her blog,

"Kesimpulan yang saya boleh buat berdasarkan lagu ini ialah, hah lenkali jangan jual mahal, kalau suka cakap la suka, dah kena sambar dengan orang lain kan menyesal tak sudah.."

Oh, tetapi adikku sayang...
kita ada interpretasi yg berbeza di sini...
huu..
It is not that easy to get what u want..
kadang tu, semuanya nampak seperti sepatutnye..
semua nampak seperti semudah 1,2,3..
tapi hakikatnye, tak senang langsung...
apa yg kita inginkan mungkin bukan yg terbaik utk kita..
apa yg kita mahukan mungkin bukan milik kita..
bukan milik kita..
bukan utk kita..
takkan mungkin dimiliki..
takkan mampu memiliki..
owh, jgn dilupa, banyak kekangan di kiri kanan ye..
sehingga semua nya nampak gelap, suram, hitam kelam...
sampai semua harapan hilang dan berkecai..
bila semuanya sesenyap, sesunyi dunia tanpa penghuninya...

maka, wujud la lagu seperti ini..
yg mana saya sgt2 suka..
kerana ia benar jujur tulus menyatakan apa yg tak mampu dikatakan
Ahaks~

Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencintai dirimu

I like to write.. and i like to talk..
both usually make me feel happy..
but sometimes, eventhough i do both of these,
i am still not happy..
hmm..rasanye sbb rindu pd mama, abah n baby kat umah..
lama dh tak balik umah..
lagi lak skrg ni macam2 benda berlaku kat umah..
hmm..mama ngan abah mmg sgt2 tabah..
sanggup wat apa aje demi membantu org lain..
sedangkan org lain kdg2 tak pernah hargai...

hmm..i am the one yg asyik membebel itu ini, tp mama n abah tetap sabar dan tenang dgn semuanya..
i guess i have to be more like them, and less like me...
less mumbling, rumbling, grumbling...
more accepting, and always lending hands to help others in need...
oh, tp saya tak mampu..
coz saya dh terselalu menjadi a very2 sceptical girl..mempertikaikan almost everything..

oh, kalau la ayu mampu, mama dan abah...
kalau la ayu mampu kurangkan walau sedikit apa jua yg mama abah tanggung ,
ayu sanggup..
tp mama, abah, ayu tak sekuat mama abah..
dari kejauhan ni, ayu cuma mampu doakan mama dan abah..
semoga mama abah sentiasa sihat agar dpt mama abah teruskan semuanya ini..
semaga mama abah sentiasa tenang, sabar dan kuat menempuh semua ni..
dlm kita mengejar keredhaan-Nya..

mungkin sbb inilah mama dan abah sentiasa bahagia, walau apa jua dugaan dan rintangan yg dtg melanda..

so pengajaran for myself:

• kena sentiasa berbuat baik pd org..kena slalu tolong org..kena slalu berlapang dada...kena slalu jd the 1st yg ke depan bila aje ada org dlm kesusahan yg perlukan bantuan..
• kena selalu redha..semua yg terjadi ada hikmah nye..what happen to others, although u think that u want the same thing, Allah knows better..coz He has a better plan for u..the best plan :)
• kena slalu jadi budak baik..tettt! haha :P

Kadang2 tu, terasa saya ni mungkin dah ter-over intrude into sumone else's life...

hmm..so, instead of saying, no, dont do it again..
it was ........................................................

what is it...?
...................................................................

hmmm. it was just a blank nothing-ness...
bole trima tak benda mcm ni..?
dpd ckp 'jangan kacau'..baik je la senyapkan diri..
senyap..diam..sunyi...takde pape bunyi..takde suara..takde kabar berita..

fine..saya faham..tapi, kenapa...?
i can accept almost everything in this world, but, plz, give me a reason...?
but i guess, mungkin kerana me myself...
 fine with me..really..fine with me...

Bukan hanya kepentingan
Malahan keegoan telah ku korbankan 

arini kan...

Arini kan,
birthday one of my cayangs, Mijah dearie :)
mijah cayang, happy birthday..
kita rasa mijah makin ari makin cute n adorable la..i likeylike ;)
smoga sntiasa jadi secomel ini ya..hehe..
cayang mijah..muah :*

Arini kan,
another of my cyg, Len, dh bgtau the whole batch about pernikahan dia this coming 2nd January..
masa Ed (abg syg Len) announce td kat lect hall 3 masa sblm common lecture, i was not there..
huhu..saya terlambat masuk kelas..tp takpe la, yg penting, smua org dh tau..
Len cyg, kita doakan kebahagiaan len tau..smoga akan kekal bahagia bersama2 Ed, sampai syurga :)
mst nnt masa nikah Len akan jd sgt gorgeous..uhu..rugi nye tak dpt pegi tgk..(mahal nye la tiket nk ke Labuan tu..saya tak de duit nk ke sana..walaupn hati melompat2 nk pergi tgk Len nikah...)

Arini kan,
ada teaching dgn Prof Abd Rashid, lecturer dpd cyberjaya medical U..(xingat la apa shortform nye..CSSMU ke..CSMS ke..yg pasti ia bukan lah CSI..haha :P)
best sgt kelas dgn prof td..
Sal was selected to clerk the case in front of him + us all..she has done a very good job :)
bayangkan, pt tu dtg dgn C/o Loss of consciousness (refined later into altered consciousness) for 3 days..
Haha..byk la kami smua bg differentials but at last, bila tgk ECG.......he actually had NSTEMI..uhu..
banyak yg dipelajari dpd prof harini...especially for me,dpt grabs the essence of medical world..any dz can present in any manner!! haha :P

Arini kan,
pegi makan lunch ngan len n hazri kat Pizza Hut..nyum nyum
kitaorg makan Cheesy Pizza dgn topping hawaian-apa-ntah..
seeeedddaaapppp..makan smpai muak...rasa2nye, xnak dh makan pizza utk 2bulan :P

Arinikan,
warna purple tu comel..
comel sgt2..sungguh teratur and tersusun..
abis la kecomelan purple tu nnt....
i cant guarantee its safety :P

td masa ckp fon ngan mama,

kat laptop ni mmg tgh pasang lagu2 jamal...

then mama dpt teka that i was listening to jamal's songs..

hehe..terer la mama..

ni dh ter-addicted ni..

dgn lagu2nye and senyumannya~

kpd cik mucuk

ptg td ber-mesej2 dgn cik mucuk (walaupn bilik kami bersebelahan, tp kami tetap sering bermesej2 instead of bersinggah2an ke biliknye yg sungguh dekat itu..haihhh..sedentary lifestyle secondary to cuti :P hahaha..)
bila dia rasa berbelah bahagi.hmmm.cik mucuk, saya pn rasa begitu...tambahan pulak exam dh terlalu dekat but i didnt even finish one chapter fully!!!!oh cik wada...kena study dgn lebih bersungguh..

and here i am, in the middle of the night, trying to write down what i am thinking dpd ptg td..haha..

Life is simple, yet, it is so delicately complicated...

it is us that make it easy or difficult...

choices are plenty, my dear...but we have to choose wisely..

yg penting, usaha, doa and tawakal...

if there is a will, there surely will be a way... :)

I cant say this or that, i just can support u all the way..

in times of indeciveness, you can always trust me to be there with u...

not to tell u what to do, no, that will be your decision dear...

but i surely will be there to support u..

and i will always be there for u, no matter when..no matter where..

coz u are always there for me too :)

P/S: ini saya tuju kan pd a girl ye, harap maklum...saya tak mau ada yg salah faham, ingat kan saya tujukan ni kpd a guy..aiiiyyooo..mana mungkin saya panggil a guy "Dear.." ahaks :P

Oh..mcam mana la nak wat hati ni tenteram..
duk belajar spanjang masa...
tak bukak internet dan tgk top chef stiap masa kat you tube tu..haha
top chef ni mmg syok..rancangan ptndingan memasak2..dh ter-addicted tgk sejak cuti raya aji aritu..
hah..
oh, cm mana la nak wat diri ni berada dlm dunia sebenar..
hmmm..mcm2 benda yg terasa dlm hati ni lately....
lagilak ni tgh dgr lagu felix, warkah berlagu pilu

Kau yang sering membahagiakan
Di kala ku kesedihan
Tak mungkin dapat ku lupakan
Ku hanya ingin kau mengerti
Apa yang ku miliki
Cuma harapan yang sirna~

semoga smua harapan ini tidaklah menjadi sirna, 

tapi menjadi bersinar-sinar..haha..

seterang cahaya mentari..

seindah kerdipan sang bintang di kala malam...

dh beberapa ari tak menulis =dah beberapa ari tak belajar dgn rajin nye...
huhu..kenapa..?
sbb kepenatan..keletihan...tp tak tau la apa penyebab kepenatan n keletihan itu..huuu..
anyway, this weekend mmg sungguh relax..
ari sabtu pg pegi umah prof wahab n prof naznin...
ada makan2 khas utk 10th batch,thanks a lot dr..sungguh seronok :)

(picture taken from awis fb..thanks ya..)

owh, saya gembira di hari itu, walaupn kehujanan..haha..coz a smile is worth a million dollar..kan..? (kalau la senyuman itu, bole dijual, kaye dah saya ni..tp xpela, the smile makes me millionaire dlm hati..sampai sekarang masih terasa 'kekayaan' senyuman itu lg.. :P )

owh, n ari sabtu ptg+malam saya tido dan berehat+bergolek2 dgn hebatnye..mmg sgt2 relax...
n td pg, pergi A&E, ptg lepas asar, pergi terminal, ingat nk beli tiket utk ija balik weekend ni, tp hampa coz kaunter maraliner tu asyik berehat je...kita smpai kat terminal kul 5.15pm, dia tulis notis, berehat smp 6pm...then i went to ecm skejap utk cari barang2...then dtg skali lg kul 6.20pm..and there it was, another notice, yg tertera REHAT..tp tak tulis smpai kul brapa..huuu..mmg membuat kan saya panas!! so, after waiting for a few minutes, saya pn pulang...i think i will go beli tiket ari slasa ni je la..huuu..

owh, tp arini ada la kerajinan nk belajar..at least ada effort..hehe..

tp, ada org demam rasanye...cian cian...mst gara2 bermain ujan ni..cian nye...dhla kena present esok...tp org pandai, mst smua nye gonna be alright...chiayok!!

keindahan hidup yg sering saya lupakan...

kebelakangan ni,kita asyik je merungut..membebel..membenci...
tp until la arini, baru saya tersedar,betapa beruntungnya diriku ini...

betapa ramai yg menyayangi...
mama yg slalu memberi nasihat dan semangat...
di kala hati ini kian hanyut dlm kegelapan derita, mama yg berjaya menerangi hatiku semula...
kawan2 yg menyayangi diri ini...yg sering saya lupakan, sedangkan mereka sentiasa ada di ketika diri ini amat memerlukan...
my friends tersayang, jetul, jut, len, nad, mijah, qila, us, izzati, yuyu, hana dan smua yg lain yg sntiasa ada bersama2 diri ini di saat yg paling getir..dan hazri yg sgt2 sering memberi sokongan dan kata2 yg membuatkan diri ini tersedar semula betapa indahnya hidup ini....

mmg hidup ini takkan sentiasa berwarna-warna...
kadang2 hitam kelam...
kadang2 putih nan pucat lesi...
tp di kala hitam dan putih datang, baru terasa betapa indahnya warna-warni...
dan membuatkan aku tersedar, bukan warna yg pelbagai yg membuatkan hidup ini bererti..
tp hidup ini akan menjadi seindah warna-warni
bila segala yg gelap, suram bertukar terang, berseri...
dgn hadirnya mereka yg menyayangi diriku....
betapa aku sering alpa, betapa indahnya hidup kurniaan Illahi...
kerana diriku dikelilingi mereka yg benar2 menyayangi diriku....

p/s: all that mama cakap mmg betul..haha..ayu dah test dah tadi..mmg ayu tk sangka smua tu, slepas apa yg terjadi dlm kisah apple n grapes itu..heee~

rasanye, sepanjang dh bertahun kita duduk kat kuantan ni, this is the first time that i feel soooooooo down...
seriously, sgt2 down, smpai rasa nak lari dpd kuantan ni..nak tinggal kan je semua nye...
tinggalkan smuanye...lupakan semuanye...
just because of what i said yesterday in the class, which i thought was not wrong, but then, some of them interpreted  it wrongly...as if saya ni tak tau malu,kan...? as if saya ni terhegeh2,kan...?
owh, please la...
seriously, i feel very2 down..feel like crying..feel like i want to disappear...
jadi asap yg bole terbang and hilang cmtu aje...
so that i wouldnt be here...

i have never felt sooo humiliated like this for a long time...a very long time...as if saya ni tak tau malu...
seriously, kita mmg tak sangka mereka akan menukarkan makna kata2 kita...
seriously, apa yg kita pikirkan at that time bukanlah seperti apa yg mereka katakan...
dan i cant stop this feeling..rasa nak lari tinggalkan smua nye...

Banyak benda nak tulis
tp takde masa..penat..
paling utama...BENCI>>BENCI >>BENCI
b-osan
e-ntah
n-ape
c-cerita yg berwarna warni dlm idup ini
i-lang

Hahaha...
bole tak tulis cmtu..?mst smua tak paham kan..?biar kan..biarkan semua tak paham...mmg bukan utk dimengertikan...mmg bukanutk difahami...cuma utkku melepaskan rasa hati....
so, walaupun jumaat malam sabtu sgt best sbb dpt kua makan2 ngan group ward 3rd year+dpt jumpa n borak2 dgn ezzu, n semalam program so what's next after mbbs telah selesai dgn jaya nye...tp arini..
penat..penat..penat.
benci...benci......benci.................................
arios!

thanks a lot for doing all these to me...
for giving me hopes and then to shatter them all into tiny million pieces~ 

Kisah apple&grapes......

This is a true story...

A story of a girl...a twisted kind of story....and not-a-fairytale story...

Once upon a time, in a far, far away land, lives a girl named Apple...
she has this one good friend named grapes...
apple and grapes have been friends for years...

 grapes n apple trusted each other...
at one time, grapes was totally madly in-monkey-love with this one school boy...
apple supported grapes soooo much, encouraging grapes to try her best to achieve whatever that she wanted.
apple would be the one cheering grapes, when grapes cried and cried and cried, as the boy rejected her monkey-love...
apple did say to grapes, "it is his lost...he is such a fool to reject such a wonderful girl like u...."
apple continued to make grapes happy, to make grapes forget the boy and move on with life....
apple tried all that she can...
and grapes seemed to be better with each passing day....

at one time, as apple trusted grapes, apple told grapes almost everything about herself....
apple told grapes everything, the boy with whom she has crush, the boy that she hated the most....
but what did grapes do...?
she just responded negatively to apple...
"ala...takkan la dia suka kamu..."
"ala...tak payah la buang masa suka pd budak tu..."
"ala...tak mungkin la dia tu nak pandang pun pd awak..."
grapes did not even supported apple...not even once...
and at that time, apple felt that grapes was trying to make apple focused on her study. SPM..ambitions..
not to fall for any guy...
bcoz apple thought, grapes didnt want apple to feel hurt as what grapes has felt... .

 
both of them, apple and grapes do want to be doctors....
they have been having this same ambition since they were in primary school....
and a few months before SPM, grapes and her family moved to another state...
and there was only apple alone, there....
but apple tried her best..
and currently pursuing her ambition...
apple and grapes still contact once in a while...
with the help of technology,,handphone....internet...Facebook...YM...
and until nowaday, they still keep in touch....

at one time, apple found out about something really inappropriate of which grapes tried to do...
grapes said that, it is in the name of love...
apple did forbid grapes to do it...
and at that time, grapes and her BF had a very big fight becoz of what apple told grapes...
but apple said to grapes, "if he really wants you that much, he will wait for u.....not by doing this..."
and apple was right..
the guy waited and waited for grapes...up till now...

and recently, apple contacted grapes...
grapes has finished her degree,in agriculture..and wanting to continue with master...
and, as what apple used to do, she did confide to grapes....
apple told grapes about everything...
once again, a fool of apple...to tell everything to grapes...
apple wanted grapes to give her opinion...
of the matter of her life..
of the matter of her heart..
but once again, the same negative answers were all that grapes told apple...

"oh, kalau doctor, bila dah keluar, mesti la dah ramai yg menunngu...dah beratur girls nak kan doktor...so why should that guy wait for u...why would he choose u over those other girls........"

"pikirla...awak tu perempuan...dia tu lelaki...kalau lelaki, makin tua, makin ramai yg suka...lagi lak doctor...tapi awak.............................."

and apple felt that,how could grapes told her that...
yes, reality and the truth, sometimes are that cruel...
but, how could a friend told another friend sumting as bitter as that...?

And this is how the story ends...
Apple is still there...
Grapes has succeeded to make apple feel that love will never ever be hers...

 

here, apple is drowning in her own tears, while grapes happily watch from outside...

THE END...

(kisah ini cuma kisah buah2an...haha)

Banyak benda nak cerita...
sila baca ini BANYAK benda sgt2 nk crita..
owh..tp saya cuma ada sedikit je masa..huuu
so, just bole tulis points2 nye aje la...kalau ada masa, i'll write further eh...?

• bila abis je cuti n i hv to come back to kuantan, i'll be extra super-duper sedih sbb kena duk jauh dpd mama, abah n baby..huuu.miss them so much...counting the days utk kembali tinggal bersama2 mereka..harap2 la dapat llulus final pro nnt..so that i can be at home, n kerja kat melaka, n duduk dgn my family stiap masa...5 years in kuantan is toooooo long...

• tp bila pikir semula, cuma tinggal a few months to b with my beloved frenz, here...sob sob..sedih nye...dont want to be separated from them all...sb masa bersama2 mereka smua inilah, saya mengenal erti kehidupan..dan paling utama, makna persahabatan...sbb since dgn mereka smua la, saya merasa keindahan persahabatan itu.... ohhh, i'm sooo sure that i'll miss them sooooo much..uhu..

• arini rasa sgt2 teringin nk makan epal...mula2 tu, rasa nk makan epal ijau, tp sbb kat the store td epal ijau nye tak cantik, saya pn membeli epal pink...sedddaaaap :)  

• saya tak suka rasa di hati yg tak tentu pasal ini..huuu.jgn mengada2 ye...xelok berperasaan begitu wahai cik hati...kena duk diam2...kena baca buku je setiap masa..kena jatuh cinta pd buku2 je selalu.. 

• IM adalah terlalu susah utk saya...susah,,saya takut saya tak mampu....uhu... saya takut sgt2..

• oh, kasih ibu bapa adalah terlalu sgt2 sukar nk dibalas...mereka sanggup buat apa aje utk anak2...sedangkan anak2...hmmm..mampukah kita buat,even 10% of apa yg mereka dh buat utk kita...? ada byk sgt2 nk crita...especially slepas tgk patient kat ward td..uhu...he is 25y/o, single, malay male, comes with chief complaint of fever for 2 months, + LOA n LOW for 2 months,+SOB for 2 weeks, currently cannot ambulate much, becoz severe SOB..betapa besarnye pengorbanan dan kasih ibubapa pd anak2...the father sanggup turun cari air then naik ke atas smula bawak sebekas air (dalam bekas besar, mau2 adalah 10 L kot air tu..berat tau tgk pakcik tu angkut air sorg2...)for the pt sbb the toilet in hospital xde air arini, n the pt wants to BO...oh, pakcik tu dh tua..n the makcik tu pn dh tua..makcik tu tunggu je kat sebelah pt tu spjg masa...mereka sanggup ikut pt tu, ke mana aje...he went to echo, (he has pericardial effusion, secondary to?? yet to be determined...) mereka menunggu di luar..after echo, while waiting utk transfer pt ke CCU, mereka tunggu je di sisi pt tu...makcik tu smpai duduk bersila kat lantai depan MOPD sbb lama sgt nak tunggu..sian mereka...pakcik tu siap tolong tolak kan bed pt tu, sepanjang perjalanan, dpd ward ke MOPD, kemudian ke CCU pulak..huuuu..saya sgt2 terharu...
 

• of course, me myself mmg sgt2 tau betapa byk nye mama n abah dh berkorban for me, semata2 to make sure i can get what ever i want..and for that, i'm sooo grateful..tp saya tau, saya mmg bukan anak yg baik...tak cukup baik..dan perlu jadi lebih baik, utk mama n abah...MAMA n ABAH, I love u sooo much..ayu mintak maaf, i know that sumtime, i dont show it, but i just want u both to know that i do...

arini...
saya bangun awal pg..kul 6 dh terjaga..kebil2 bangun, siap2...
kul 720 pg dh bergerak ke terminal...
tunggu...tunggu...tunggu....
tunggu...tunggu...tunggu...
tunggu kaunter maraliner bukak...
ingat nk cari tiket nak balik melaka awal...tiket saya kul 6ptg arini...
ingatkan kalau ada tiket lebih awal, nak beli la...kul 845 pg ke...
so, saya pun menjadi penunngu setia di terminal makmur...kul 820 baru kaunter bukak...
"Takde dh tiket ke melaka arini dik..."
uhu...saya sedih...tp xpe, masih menyimpan harapan yg kalau jumpa driver bus, maybe ada lg seat kosong yg slal reserved for driver...
uhu...tp xde..bas ke mlaka penuh...
so, saya pn pulang ke uia smula...
thanks to cik len supermodel coz dia ygdtg amik kta dpd terminal pg td..huhu..
then kita pn mengajak len gi bfast..hehe..we went to mcd..breakfast at mcD.. Nyum nyum :P

then tghari ni nak kuar makan ngan len,.nk makan kat BayRoute..yeay!!

slpas tu, planning nk shopping baju raya lak...hehe

Nasib baik mood arini = happy happy happy :D
kalau x, mesti saya dh menangis kesedihan sbb xdpt balik umah awal...

mst kerana masa sembang2 yg lama semalam malam...haha..
gembira bergelak ketawa mlm td...ahaks :)
ye....mmg kalau lebih gelap, lebih macho, tp.....tp....tp....
tet!!!jangan hiraukan kata2 mereka yg busy body itu ;)
being one's true self is the most amazing thing, sbb itu adalah original ;) hahaha :D

tadi meminta pendapat cik len yg cantik..
huhu...
conclusion yg saya dpt: saya tak tahu apa yg saya sedang lakukn sekarang...
huuuuu....
huuuuuu....
susah nye hidup ni...
susah nye rasa ini...
bila dah smpai ke masa dan ketika yg seperti ini,

boleh tak kalau semua nya bakal kekal begini, sampai bila2...?
boleh tak kalau takde sesiapa yg boleh merampas kegembiraan kita ni...?
supaya kita boleh tersenyum setiap masa...
supaya kita sntiasa merasa indah nya segala di dunia ini...
supaya semua yg kelam dan suram, tetap akan dilihat berwarna-warni kerana semua ini..

boleh tak kalau takde sesiapa yg bakal memiliki, selain kita....?
boleh tak kalau kita jadi selfish, just fikirkan diri sendiri and ignore kan aje org lain...
boleh tak kalau kita ada keberanian yg terlalu hebat, smpai kita mampu berkata2 apa yg kita rasa...?
boleh tak kalau kita berusaha sedaya upaya nak dapatkan apa yg kita inginkan...?


tp rasanya, kita takkan mampu buat semua ini....
sebab kita terlalu kenal dgn diri sendiri yg tak pernah akan mampu memiliki....
sebab kita tau di mana letaknya, langit dan bumi....

Birthday Mama~

Wah wah, bulan november ialah bulan birthdays kan ;) heehee
arini is my beloved mama punye birthday...
all my other sisters are currently at home, so i guess, i can only wish mamadpd jauh je la..
hugs n kisses, terpaksa la later on, masa balik umah slasa ni nnt...
huuu

anyway, as today is  mama punye birthday, of course la it means a lot to me ;)
(birthday smua org yg saya syg adalah sgt2 bermakna buat saya, weee..saya yg terlebih excited...)
mama, ayu tak dapat nak bagi pape adiah pd mama..huhu..
tp insyaAllah, next year, kita bole kuar celebrate bersama2 beramai2 ye ;) yeay!!!

Happy birthday Mama...

Mama...ayu tau, 

ayu ni slalu sgt mengada2...

tp mama selalu je layan kerenah ayu dgn sabar..

n that, i know that u love me sooo much

kadang2 tu sgt moody..suka je marah2 tak tentu pasal...

tp mama tetap mampu tahan dgn ayu dan ceriakan ayu semula...

n that, i know that u love me sooo much..

kadang2 tu terlalu unpredictable, 
at one second i would be laughing then after a moment, i would be crying...

tp, mama tetap akan sentiasa berada di sisi ayu tak kira apa terjadi...

n that, i know that u love me sooo much..

kadang2 tu ayu diam je, xmau crita pape..kadang2 tu, ayu cakap banyak sgt2...

tp mama tetap setia di situ, menemani ayu di setiap masa dan ketika...

n that, i know that u love me sooo much....

There are so many things that u have done for me..

and yet, too little things that i can do to repay you...

But mama, i just want to let you know, that i love you soooo much...

more than words can say...

more than money can buy..

more than what i can do to show you that i do...

Semoga mama panjang umur, murah rezeki, sentiasa bahagia di dunia akhirat...

Smoga mama dikurniakan dgn kesihatan yg baik sepanjang masa...

Smoga mama sentiasa dilimpahi dgn rahmat-Nya...

Happy birthday Mama 

P/S; mama, bole tak ayu nak wish sumting lagi, hehe..
semoga di masa akan dtg, mama akan mendpt bakal2 menantu yg best (+ ensem..haha), yg mama berkenan, bukan sekadar anak2 mama je yg berkenan...
(this is the naughty me!!and mama dah biasa sgt dgn perangai kita yg sebegini..ahaks :P)

Bukan...

Bukan khayalan yg aku berikan, tapi keyakinan yg nyata....

Oh,saya rasa saya dh terover jiwang kebelakangan ini...
blame it all to the weather, yg sntiasa hujan dan sejuk ini...hahahaha :P
jahat sungguh diri ini kerana salah kan cuaca..cuaca tak salah langsung..
saya yg tak reti mengawal dose jiwang2an ini...
hehehe..

Pape pun, dgr crita esok result exam kami smua akan kuar..
(dh dgr sejak ari rabu lg...then arini pn dgr result akan kuar...tp sbb xkuar2, so, mungkin esok la kot)
hope that kami smua 10th batch mbbs iium akan lulus dgn cemerlang...

Mau menulis la..

Owh hati rasa melompat2...banyak benda nk kena crite ni..haishh..
wahai hati,sila la berdegup selancar biasa...hahaha (saya tak mau any palpitation plz...apatah lagi arythmia dan segala macam yg seangkatan dgn nye..hee)

Td pg ada kelas dgn Prof How...i am supposed to do short case with him, but end-up with presenting a case with him..huissh..lega sgt2 skrg ni sbb dh lepas dh kena present pd dia...i know that it was very bad, but frenz, i promise i'll improve..sori la ye for a bad presentation td...tp yg syoknye, the class was enjoyable n fun...
Prof How sgt pandai..pandai sgt2 smpai kan the way he teaches us membuatkan saya terasa mau menjadi rajin..

(plus kerana kegirangan+kegembiraan+gelak ketawa riang ria yg telah membuat saya smakin bersemangat...ditambah dgn  sokongan padu dpd mama tersayang plus my beloved family..all these=happy)

then petang tadi, saya,jut n len gi ke ward to find pt for Len's long case esok..kami sgt rajin..yeay!! trima kasih pd jut n len kerana berjaya membuatkan kta rajin di kala ptg yg agak2 mengantuk+penat sbb dh lama berdiri masa klas Prof How td..hee

and sampai skrg, saya belum belajar lagi..haha.
tp akan saya usaha kan utk membaca buku sbentar lg ni...
kerana saya dibuai mimpi semalam~

kalau kebahagiaan seindah ini, biarlah ia menjadi kenyataan...

kerana keindahan ini terlalu bermakna....

kerana kenyataan itu sesuatu yg pasti, 

sedangkan diriku kini sekadar bermain dgn fantasi~

A year older, A year wiser..

Haha..hari ni, ada apa eh...? ^^ wink wink...
as what 2 sisters yg duk kat umah di ketika ini said, "kita tgk apa yg kakyu buat on 9hb ni"
so, u are true my dearest sisters (si kembar com ; adlina = comel, liyana = comot..)
this is what i am doing..
i am writing this on my blog..hahaha..
berani maut kan kakak awak yg baik hati ini :P
(tu la, sape suruh korg asyik membuat count-down kat umah tu...kakyu dh terikut2 dh ni...haha)

so, to whom these words are meant for... (i know dia tak baca tp at least i write sumting, kan...)

for me, today is a special day...
though each day is amazing by itself,
but today is a special day of the amazing everyday...

Today is a gift of everyday..
to have someone as special as the one born on this date, 24 years ago...
sumone who is always there with me....
sumone who is always there for me...
sumone who always make me laugh, and laugh and laugh somemore...
sumone who always make me feel at ease...
sumone who let me be me, so i dont have to pretend to be sumone of which i'm not...

So, today, on your birthday....

I wish for all your dreams to come true...

I wish for all your days to be filled with happiness....

I wish for your health and well-being, for years and years ahead...

I wish you all the pleasures, of which money cant buy...

I wish you many years of laughter and joy...

I wish you all the coming years to be devoid of sorrow..

I wish you all of life’s best treasures.

I wish you happily ever after...

 

 Love makes the Time pass.....  

Time makes Love pass.....

P/s: just a 5-minute rests from reading Kaplan..bubye, i have to go and read Kaplan lagi..huhu..esok exam clinical...doakan kejayaan saya dan kawan2 saya :)

Exam psy posting 1st n 2nd Nov 2010

How come a few minutes of u can give me such a magical feelings...?
kita nk exam, dia pun nk exam..
tp those few minutes mmg sungguh menarik ^^
haha..org sepandai dia berdiscuss dgn org cm saya (saya ni average je..haha..walaupn dh lepas surgery, tp, rasanye dia lebih sgt2 kot kalau nk compare dgn kita..ahaks :P)

Owh, all the words that i couldnt say...
How it makes me smile all the way...
And u have given me all that i need to survive through the following excruciating exam days...
Owh this heart of mine...reckless heart of mine...

To All my beloved Friends...

semoga kita semua berjaya..

smoga dipermudahkan kita semua menjawab soalan2 exam ni...

Berusaha ye kawan2...pantang menyerah sebelum berjuang :)

Doakan kejayaan bersama :)

tak tau kenapa...
hati ni rasa marah pada diri sendiri
sbb tak tunaikan apa yg sepatutnya saya wat
which is to focus on my study n ignore everything else...
ignore kan smua yg lain
lupakan aje smua yg lain
itu tak penting, ini tak penting,
dia juga tak penting...

A girl has to do what a girl supposed to do...

So, for me, the most that i could do is...
to dream and dream and dream some more...

yes, i do like to dream...
coz when i dream, everything will be just fine..
i can be with my family and all worry will be gone..
i can have all that i want, and yet, i dont even have to pay a single cent for it...
most importantly, when i dream, i will not be disappointed..
no despair...
no hope crashing.....
no heart broken.......

Owh, plz la...

Hati ni terasa sperti ditusuk duri..huhu..sakit..hmm..mmg la apa yg trjadi tu tiada kaitan dgn saya, tp, i dont like guyz that cant appreciate girls..

owh yes, i dont like guys that think they are superior than girls..

men and women are made to complete each other kan...?
so, kenapa perlu nye all those harsh words...?
as if us girls are made just to be ur maid...
istri utk memasak, kena pandai masak..
istri utk mengemas umah, kena pndai menghias n bersihkan umah...
istri kena duk umah jaga anak2, so kalau bole, no need to work...(on this particular point, i am not against it actually, but i think, the wife should be given a chance to decide, either to continue working or to be at home taking care of the children...)
hmm..all these kolot thinking..no.no.no..

husband n wife are supposed to share all those house chores together right..?
that's what marriage is supposed to be...
to share all the gud things and bad things that life would offer..to share everything...

hmmm.i think, bukan je istri kena pandai masak, a husband should be able to cook too, kan..?
at least to be there to help the wife, prepares the table ke, tolong siang2 kan ikan ke..potong2 kan bawang ke..it'll be sooo much fun to do it together,kan...?
(it is so cute tau sebenarnye...as an example, time raya aritu, disebabkan kitaorg nk masak byk benda, even my abah turun dapur tolong my mama..abah yg tolong siangkan ayam2 kampung tu..coz mama+me+my adiks were busy cooking other dishes utk raya aritu..)
so, knpa slalu nye requirement from a guy to find calon istri, who is someone that can cook..? the guy should also be someone who can cook..so that, it'll be fair n square :))
owh, pasti comel kan, kalau bila ada kelapangan, wat competition memasak btwn the husband n wife..tgk masakan sape paling sedap...hehe..comel sgt2..then ajak la kawan2 dtg makan, they can be the judge too:P

hmm.i think, the issue of kemas2 umah ni, hmmm, it needs co-operation from both side..mmg la istri bole mengemas..tp bayangkan, kalau ari2 istri tu mengemas, but the husband doesnt seem to care, bila balik umah, baju campak ke mana, dgn beg/files/paperworks etc diletak je bersepah...owh, i didnt just make up this example, this is a reality..so, how do u expect the house to be bersih, kemas dan teratur if u dont give ur co-operation...and plus, i dont see any harm in hiring a maid, kn...?hmm..dont ever treat ur wife like one..or dont expect us girls to be one when we are married, sbb we girls are not...we share the same house, so why cant we share the house chores as well....?hmmm....

I dont have any intention to membebel sepanjang ini..
But,i do easily get irritated with guys who think that their future wife will be 'their maid' and not their spouse...plz la...plz sgt2...dont treat us like one....

(this entry has nothing to do with any guys yg rapat dgn saya..to be stressed once again, xde kaitan dgn mana2 jejaka [ahaks :P] yg rapat dgn saya..no no no..bukan pasal dia..juga bukan pasal mereka2 yg seposting saya..hahaha )

Dadali Band : Disaat Aku Mencintaimu

Owh...saya sgt terbuai dek satu lagu yg diberi oleh cik mucuk.. Tajuknye, Di Saat Aku Mencintaimu~
owh, sgt2 menusuk hati....if only..if only...

Di Saat Aku Mencintai Mu

Mengapa kau pergi, Mengapa kau pergi
Di saat aku mulai mencintaimu,
berharap engkau jadi kekasih hatiku,
Malah kau pergi jauh dari hidupku,

Menyendiri lagi, Menyendiri lagi,
Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi,
Tak pernah ada yang menhiasi hariku,
Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencintai dirimu,
Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta…….

Menyendiri lagi, Menyendiri lagi,
Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi,
Tak pernah ada yang menhiasi hariku,
Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencintai dirimu,
Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta…….

Semoga engkau kan mengerti,, tentang perasaan ini
Maaf ku telah terbuai, akan indahnya cinta
Maaf sungguhku tak bisa, untuk kembali padamu
Maaf ku telah terbuai, akan indahnya cinta

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku,
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta,

Aku inginkan diri mu, datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu, aku sangat mencinta..............

Birthday Ija 23rd Oct 2010~

Arini birthday ija yg ke 20..hehe..coz kakyu ni belum bekerja,so, xde adiah ye ija..next year nnt insya Allah kalau akak dh keja,kita celebrate besar2an dgn mama, abah, baby ngn kakna skali k..

anyway, happy 20th birthday ye ayg..smoga smua yg ayang cita2 kan bakal menjadi kenyataan...

smoga sntiasa dirahmati dan diberkati Illahi...

smoga ayg akan jd doktor yg baik, yg dpt berbakti pd agama, bangsa n negara..

smoga ayg kekal mjdi kebanggaan kluarga kita...

smoga ayg makin berjaya dan bergaya (hehe..tp jgn lebih2 ye, nnt abis smua pakwe2 akak ija kebas..akak putih mata lak nnt :P ngeh ngeh ngeh..) 

Happy bestday my dear sister :)

I am trying to find a song that can at least describe what i'm feeling right now..
hmm..but i cant..no, i cant..
coz it is sooo complicated, even i cant spell it out...
but for one thing, of which i am very sure of, i am very grateful for given a chance to have such 'a spectrum of wonderful' feeling~

Semalam saya tido spjg malam...lgsg xbuat pape selain tido dgn nyenyak nye..a day wasted without doing nothing..owh,owh,owh..

tp smlm adalah hari yg sronok..coz my grup ward (me, cimee,husna, mimi,asma') gi ke rehab..hehe..
klaka sgt2..when the patients are allowed to play around and do activities...
tp smlm kurg havoc nye coz there were only 'blunted' ptz..ptz bipolar smua nye xjoin rehab smlm...
but still, i really enjoyed aktiviti smlm..hehe...

1st, we were ask to sing along with the patients..nyanyi lagu negaraku, jalur gemilang, malaysia gemilang terbilang..haha..rasa cm zaman skolah la msa tu...
kena berdiri tegak nyanyi lagu2 tu..hehe..mcm2 gelagat pt dpt dilihat..mmg klaka..

then, ktaorg kena main volleyball..uhu..
ini bukan games saya!!!
saya cuma pemerhati tegar game ini, tp saya tak reti main..tolong!!! haha..
mmg kaw-kaw ktaorg kena belasah dgn sorg abg attendant ni (mana aci, pt cuma 2,3 org je yg bole main, tp abg attendant tu yg main berlebih2an shingga menyebabkan kami kalah...30-6..hehe..mmg memalukan..saya dh kena ketawa dh dgn org yg handal..ish ish..)
cimee siap ckp lagi, patut panggil dia yg terer tu main kat ctu time tu, pasti kami menang :P

then, kami wat aktiviti in-door with the pt..
"putera-puteri impian"..
ni aktiviti dlm grup..saya seorg+seorg student nurse+4patients.
kena hiaskan seorg dpd pt tu, guna newspaper..
my grup menang dpt 1st place :D yeay!!!
para juri ckp, kitaorg pny teamwork is the best..hehe..bangga I ^^

The girl standing next to me is my grup's model..with other contestants and my other frenz..hehe..best..best :))

Owh, colour of ysterday - maroon..haha..why..? coz i like maroon 5 :D * adakah jwapan sy menjawab soalan....? ngeh ngeh :D

owh,. arini sgt2 penat..ntah kenapa,spatutnye saya kena blajar..next week dh ada short-case psy..plus, esok ptg ada study grup..uhu..kena jd lebih rajin ni..

btw, arini, happy..happy..happy...
sbb ada yg dh membuatkan saya gembira coz mengenakan seseorg yg slalu wat saya sakit hati..haha..
trima kasih krana wat cmtu..thanks a lot..
sila teruskan berbuat begitu ya...kita sokong 101% :D

when she felt annoyed, i feel happy :D 

haha (kedengaran sprti saya ni jahat kan??mmg pun..sbb that girl selalu sgt sakit kan ati saya..)

but i do wonder, will she ever be annoyed if the one making fun of her is a 'he' not a 'she'...? rasa nye dia suka je kot kalau cmtu...hmmm....

I am writing at the odd hours (lagi...?)
hmm..i think that my sleeping hours hv been altered for this past few days la..uhu..
tido tak tentu masa..tp belaja nye tk de la byk pun~

hmm..tp one thing for sure, i miss my family soooo much...rindu sgt2 pd mama, abah n baby...td masa ckap kat fon dgn mama, when mama told me about baby, walaupn just crita biasa, but i felt like crying...owh..
how much i miss that little girl..the apple of my eyes...huhu..rindu sgt2 nak cium n hug her tightly..n main2 dgn baby, gelak2 n do lots of silly funny things with her...dah lama sgt rasa nye i am here..
sgt2 berdoa so that i will pass my pro exam,
so that, next year i can start to work in mlaka n be with them again :))

bole la pegi kua makan2 sama2..kua jalan2 sama2..kua shopping sama2..
bila rasa jemu or bosan, mama will always be there for me, bole crita everything pada mama, kalau sedih2, she will always be there to wipe my tears and cheer me up...
bila rasa boring, ada my little pumpkin..we can do sooooo much things together..and i am sure it'll be sooo much fun..tak sabar rasanya nak bawak baby kua jalan2 n tgk wayang sama2...gelak2 sama2...having fun together..
and of course, abah will always be there to be my hero :) hehe...akan sntiasa rasa selamat when abah is around..

owh..owh..owh..how i miss home soooo much...

and i am doing my best to make sure that i pass my pro-exam...
although it may seem flawed, but i am trying the best  that i can...

plz pray for me...plz pray for my friends too, 10th batch mbbs iium...
plz pray for our success :)))

saya konon2 stayup nk blaja..nk baca for seminar esk..but i ended up surfing the net..alahai kakyu..study la..exam tgal less than 2 weeks je lg...
owh..byk nye benda nk crita...
kisah di wad dahlia arini, we tried to interview 3 patients yg akhirnye mengecewakan...
kisah saya yg tiba2 nk kena present for esok class, factitious disorder and malingering..
hmmm..heading nye ajela ye...kita nk crita smua nye...
tp..tp...tp cm malas nk type, my hands are LAZY :P hehe..

owh, td i talked dgn lama nye ngan mama kat fon..happy sgt2...dah lama dah ayu tak call n sembang2 lama2 cmtu ngan mama,kan...miss u sooooo much mama...rasa macam dh setahun dh ayu tak balik umah..huhu...i'm looking forward to finish my exam, sbb nak balik umah n jumpa mama...

plus, kisah di kala malam smlm yg mmg xdpt lupa smpai skrg...
haha..
dear friends, lpas ni kalau ada sesapa nk kita jd pengintip aka spy, sila gunakan khidmat saya ok.?hehe..
ada yg dh suruh kta jd spy smlm..
which ended up with dia punya grandeour delusion (^^) and me laughing my heart out...
klaka sungguh la encik...ada ke patut suruh kita wat cmtu di kala malam yg hujan lebat..?ish ish ish...
I report nnt kang :P hihihi..tp xkanla kita nk report, coz kita pn dh terlibat sama kan..? tp comel sungguh ya permintaan pertolongan itu..out of nowhere..haha..mcm a bit of surprise pn ada gak :P

AXIS of DSM IV-TR

* Just a note for me yg tak pandai2 lg ni..konon2nye wat case write up dementia..pastu tak tau nak letak axis mana..hahaha :P 

Axis I: Clinical Syndromes -
This axis describes clinical symptoms that cause significant impairment. Disorders are grouped into different categories, including adjustment disorders, anxiety disorders, and pervasive developmental disorders.

Axis II: Personality and Mental Retardation
This axis describes long-term problems that are overlooked in the presence of Axis I disorders. Personality disorders cause significant problems in how a patient relates to the world and include antisocial personality disorder and histrionic personality disorder. Mental retardation is characterized by intellectual impairment and deficits in other areas such as self-care and interpersonal skills.

Axis III: Medical Conditions
These include physical and medical conditions that may influence or worsen Axis 1 and Axis II disorders. Some examples may include HIV/AIDS and brain injuries.

Axis IV: Psychosocial and Environmental Problems
Any social or environmental problems that may impact Axis I or Axis II disorders are accounted for in this assessment. These may include such things as unemployment, relocation, divorce, or the death of a loved one.

Axis V: Global Assessment of Functioning
This axis allows the clinician to rate the client's overall level of functioning. Based on this assessment, clinicians can better understand how the other four axes are interacting and the effect on the individual's life.

Letters to Juliet~

Doubt thou the stars are fire..

Doubt that the sun doth move..

Doubt truth be a liar..

But never doubt, i love .....

Letters to Juliet..

Owh, crita ini sweet sgt...simple yet sgt terasa di hati saya..padahal tiada kaitan pn with my life.
baru je abis tengok crita ini...
kononnye nak bg motivation utk wat CWU..
saya dlm mode kejiwangan ~
just because of this movie, i once again believe in true love..

p/s: kawan2 kalau nak movie ni, kita ada tau..hehe...pd kita, crita ni sweet..n i smiled n smiled n smiled while watching this movie...nape eh....?

I hate to be here~

I hate to be here...
jauh dpd mama...

I hate to be here..
Kuantan is not a place yg heavenly...
the persons (i mean org2 kuantan, not my beloved frenz) are not kind enough..they most certainly are either mean or rude....

I hate to be here..
i am all alone..
i want to cry...but no one is here to wipe my tears...
no one is here to hear me...
no one is here to understand me...

and i miss my mama sooooo much...
coz only mama can make me feel alright..
only she can calm me and soothe my feelings...

i hate to be here...
i hate to be here..
i hate to be here...

Arini..hari ini..

arini sabtu yg busy..
rasa sgt penat n ngantuk..tp mata ni tak mau tido...

i woke up early, sbb arini kan weekend, i'm supposed to sleep lebih lama..tp nape ntah xdpt tido lama2...
so, because i was feeling hungry already, i roger cik mijah cyg and we went out for breakfast..nyum2..
i ate nasi lemak ayam and mijah ate roti banjir..hehe..we even made a deal that we would go out ke sana lg lpas ni to try another stall yg nampaknye cm best..xsabar rasanye nk kua dating ngan mijah lg :)
then, i went to IKOD dgn Len n Chepon...bawak pt and her fmily jalan2 tgk iium kuantan open day...
then i went with len gi cari air teh ais sedap...
then, i went back ke bilik...kemas2 baju..kemas2 bilik...
then ptg nye, we went to open house Mr Faidzal..best sgt2..siap dpt duit raya lg..thanks a lot to Mr Faidzal & Dr Suraya...kami went once again lepas magrib slps Dr ajak..hehe..mmg mereka sgt2 friendly..even their youngest son, was very cute... "Are u my fren..?" comel sgt2 when the boy kept on asking this questions and then sings a cute song about frenz :))
then we wentback..dh dkat 1030pm...
and since then, saya bgolek2 je kat katil ni...xdapat nk tido~

wishing that someone can understand this song~

Maafkan kali ini aku harus jujur
Kau harus tau siapa aku sebenarnya
Terfikir dalam ingatku tentang cinta terlarang
Selama ini ku pendam

(coz u r saying that u dah berpunya, and u kept on saying that, and i believe it..i do....so,.i cant have any feelings for somene yg milik org..kerana milik org bukannya utkku..bukan utkku..)

Jangan salahkan keadaan ini sayang
Semua adalah keterbatasan ku saja
Tak mampu menjadi yang kau mau
Aku mencoba dan aku tak mampu

Tak bisa lagi mencintaimu
Dengan sisi langitku

(I hv tried my best, all my might..everything that i can..but i just couldnt do it anymore.....)
Aku tak sanggup jadi biasa
Aku tak sanggup

Tak ada satupun yang mungkin bisa
Terima kau seperti aku
Mohon jangan salahkan aku lagi
Ini aku yang sebenarnya

Tak mampu menjadi yang kau mau
Aku mencoba dan ku tak mampu

Aku tak sanggup