ni kisah hidup..ni kenyataan hidup..
bukan nk mengumpat..tak..jauh lagi nak mengeji..
bukan nye nak mengata..
cuma saya nk meluahkan apa yg terasa...

saya dh cukup muak duduk di sini..
muak..sesak..senak...
dh cukup la utk smua ni...
saya dh penat hidup seorang kat sini..

kalau bole, nak pergi jauh2 dpd sini..
yes, 5 years are too long for me...
cukup2 la dgn smua perkara yg dh terjadi...

saya dh bosan jd tunggul!!
saya dh bosan jd tugu kat sini..
saya dh bosan kesunyian..
kesorangan..
kesepian..

siang malam duduk seorg diri..saya dh tak tahan lg..

kalau bole, nk balik umah and stay with my family..

coz i really need them now..

coz they would never hurt my feelings..
coz they would never leave me alone..
coz they would never lie to me..
coz they would never make me feel as bad as i am feeling right now....

i am all alone..each second of every minute of each day...