Esok exam..

Huhu..esok exam psychi yg memang psycho..
Hahaha :P xbaca pape pn..rasa mcm sgt relax...smlm time crita pd mama yg esok exam, she was like terperanjat gak coz i didnt tell her earlier about it :p
Sori mama, ayu mmg malas sgt nk bc psychi tu...susah n bnyk sgt perkataan sehingga mbuat ayu ngantok tiap kali ayu baca buku tu :p sowi sgt...mlm ni ayu study ya :)
Hehe :)
Anyway, i'm not in 'exam mode' pn skrg ni...more of 'shopping mode'.. :P
Nape ye?? haha :D bak kata jetul "Rahsierrrrr..."
Hehe :)
Anyway, kita mmg tak sabar nk abis exam esok...coz, then, petang nye nak gi shopping!!!
Yeay!!! (shopping is my motivation to endure this very stressfull exam tomorrow)
Syok nye..syoknye...
BTW, kawan2, dis friday is bonuslink members day at parkson :) so, silalah bershopping esok...
Ur bonuslink reward akan digandakan sebanyak 5kali!!!!

I cant wait for tomorrow :)
Anyway, doakan kejayaan kami semua dlm exam esok k:)
To all my dear 10th batch frenz, chiayoq for exam esok...
We all can do it :)

XOXO, Me, Studying and shopping.

1,2,3.... A,B,C...

It used to be as simple as 1, 2, 3.....
U start to count, then i'll end it up.....

It used to be as easy as A, B, C....
I start to spell, then U'll read out the words...

But now, is it still the same....?
Yes... and No....

Yes, we still count 1,2,3 as what we used to do...
but,
No, now we have to add, substract, times and divide the numbers,
making it all very difficult to solve...

Yes, we still say A, B, C as what we used to do...
but,
No, now U make sentences out of the words, but I prefer the words to rhyme....

Can we sort all these things out...?
Or is it just me...
Maybe it's only me...

I'm confused of the equations...
I'm confused of the sentences...

but, more importantly...
I'm confused of You & Me....

XOXO, Me Counting and spelling...

Yesterday Was Superb !!!!

Semalam my previous grup posting kluar bsama2, gi main bowling n makan2...best sgt2....
That was the first time kita main bowling...syok sungguh...wlaupn bola tu asyik masuk longkang, tp, best sguh melambung bola tu ke dalam longkang :P hehehehe :P
Lpas bergumbira bmain bowling, kita, jetul, farhah n anaman telah bjaya memujuk bad utk blanja kitaorg ice cream mc-D...nyum nyum...thanks a lot bad :)
Then, lpas solat mgrib, kami smua pn pegi ke new horizon...it's time for makan !!!
Hhehehe :P best sgt2...
Then, we all bg ucapan ala2 ucapan perpisahan gitu :P hehehe :P time tu rasa sedih gak la, tp, dont wori...ada 2years lg utk kita smua bsama2...even dh tak sama posting :)
Then balik...lalalalalala ~ bahagia sungguh :P






XOXO,
Me, Happy, so happy....

What if it's true...?

Semalam there was a statement by my very dear fren, hmmm, mungkin betul apa yg dia kata,,,mungkin betul sangkaan itu...tp, apa yg harus kita lakukan, coz i think, and i feel that, i'm already trapped in this 'curse'............
Apa yg harus ku lakukan....i dont think that i cn move forward...but still, i cant erase what's in my mind, and in my heart....
Quoted from a song by my favourite singer,Jamal Abdillah, " Oh Tuhan, tolong lah aku..."

Keep On Going ~

Dah dekat sebulan tak tulis blog ni...
Huhu...rasanye byk benda nak crita, tp dont know where to start la :)
Ok, lets begin from the last time i left this blog a.k.a b4 exam y3b4 aritu...

1. Exam aritu mmg horror, tp, alhamdulillah, dah pass the exam :) hehe :) best sgt...sgt2 bersyukur coz dah berjaya pass exam ong yg mcabar tu...

2. Cuti after exam yg pendek aritu, mmg sgt membahagiakan....i spent most of my time at home, with mama, of course...maka bermula lah episod nyanyian ku di rumah, kita akan menyanyi pd tiap mase.Time bgn tido,time iron baju, time sidai baju, time memasak, time tgk tv bila ada iklan2 kat tv tu, time bukak pintu bila abah balik kerja, pendek kata, hampir stiap masa...smua org kat umah tu asyik je senyum dgn lebarnye bila kita menyanyi...(maksudnye, suara kita sgt2 merdu, smpai mama rindu bila kita dh balik ke kuantan ni..hehehe ) Hahaha :P

3. Time cuti tu gak, dpt la ikut rombongan meminang..anak buah kita ( son of my kakak sepupu) nk bertunang, so, kita ikutla...mmg syok...meriah sgt...tiba2 je terpikir, alamak, diri ni dh tua, cmne ni...maybe takkan ada such event for me nnt..huhu..cmne ni..cmne ni...adik dh ada abg cyg nye,tp mama dh ckp awal2, xde langkah bendul...so...ertinye...maknanye...kita dulu????owh. no!!!!!!! Tolong!!!!! Then the clock starts ticking, tik-tok,tik-tok.................

4. Then, cuti pn abis..huhu..maka pulangla diri ini ke kuantn dlm misi ku memburu cita2..hehe :) dh 4th year dh skrg...tp, yg sedih nye, dah terpisah dgn most of my previous posting frenz....dah tak sama grup dgn jetul, nad, us, azi, fadhil, nizam, syaify, etc...huhu..sedih sgt2..even tak sama grup dgn 'u know who'...owh!!!! NO!!!!NO!!!! i cant imagine how i'm going to survive this 1 year...huhuhu..sedihnye..tp, luckily, my new grup posting ada jut nagn mijah..hihi :) cayang korang..

5.Ok,starting 4th year ni, subject nye, forensic medicine..best sgt2...rasa mcm nak jd CSI lak..hehe :) inilah masa nye segala 'pengalaman' menonton CSI,CSI Miami,CSI new york, yg mmg kita minat mjadi sgt bharga...hehe :) best la...but, at the same time, each time the doctors show the slides, i feel sedih sgt..hiba pun ada...cmne la mnusia bole jd sekejam itu...

6. Disebabkan kelas for this week cuma pd 8.30am till 12 pm, petang adalah free...hehe :) best nye, coz dpt ronggeng sepuas hati...tp bila dh tak tau nak wat ape, contohnye mcm skrg ni, mmg tak syok lgsg...huhu...makanye saya pun asyik la mjadi pseudoroomate G2.4...hahaha :) nasib baik la mereka ni baik, sentiasa je menerima kehadiran diri ini..hahaha :P

Ok, esok, i'll try to write sumthing lg la...hehehe :P bila dah start menulis blog ni, mmg tk bole nak stop...till next time, bubye...

XOXO, Me , Boring n lonely..

My Days~

Windunye dah lama tak tulis blog ni...

Huhuhu ~ knon nye bz la... tp sbnrnye takde la bz sgt pun...

I'm just trying to 'focus' on study, coz exam is just around the corner...

But still, they are a lot of interesting things that happened last week :)

1. Last week was a very bz week...bz nak completekan logbook..mcm2 yg terpaksa dikorbankan (esp my precious sleeping time.huhuhu~ ) Alhamdulillah, dh submit pn yesterday...


2. The first time that i really sleep at the hospital...( sblm ni pernah skali stay kat low-risk tu, tp, xtido pn...hehehe :p main2, borak2, gelak2 je spjg malam while waiting for the patient to deliver...tp last saturday night, i sleep kat musolla low-risk sbb xde org nk bersalin pn...)


3. First time in my life, bila kita tgk 2 jenazah baby yg baru lahir...siap dikapan...ada kat hi-risk...
Huhuhu :( sedih sgt2.... coz, baby spatutnye lahir dgn mbawa cahaya kegembiraan for the parents and the family...tp, aritu, ada 2 intrauterine death, then bersalin by SVD.... sedih sgt...i was very sad ( n seram sgt tgk ada 2 jenazah baby kat tempat baby tu), and i couldn't imagine how the mothers felt........... Ini semua dugaan Allah...kita tak tau, but He knows the best for us, kan..? Sblm ni pn, kita ada dgr, if a baby dies, then the baby will wait for the parents kat syurga nnt...kita tak tau sgt, tp, for those yg tau, plz let me know, ya?

4. While waiting for doing CP, there was one Chinese man, yg baru je lpas tgk wife dia bersalin kan anak sulung diaorg...He was very excited at that time, dia sgt2 teruja to see pengorbanan istri dia, yg sgup susah payah lahirkan anak mereka... This is quoted from him, " Smua lelaki spatutnye tgk istri bersalin...baru la tau btapa besar pengorbanan istri tu... Yg penting, istri dan anak sy slamat..." Wah...best nye...best sgt if dapat a husband who really appreciate the wife...I'm hoping for one in the future, insya-Allah..hehehe :P doa byk2 k....

5. A lot of other small2 things that matter to me... Betapa penting nye nilai persahahabatn... Betapa tingginya nilai kejujuran... Betapa bermakna ny kasih sayang dalam hidup ini... But, let these all be memories, that i'll treasure for all my life :)


Btw, malam ni, my ward grup, (me, Jetul, Azi, Nizam, Syaify, Fadhil, Hazri) nak pegi makan2 kat santai...hehehe :) to celebrate the time we hv spent together at the ward...melalui susah senang bersama, dlm mengharungi kesukaran zaman O&G bersama2 :) hehehehe :) i'm looking forward for tonite....

Hehehe :)

Btw, i'm missing my family sooooooooooooo much...tak sabar nak balik umah after exam ni :)

But, yg penting, kena study rajin2 utk exam ni... Chiayoq!!!!

P/s: My motivator, awak tu dh terlebih pandai, bagi la kita kepandaian, serta kerajinan awak tu...hehehehe :) n, keep on being my motivator, k?

XOXO, Me, Study & strive for exam....

Why...oh why...?

Pernah tak terasa macam satu dunia ni sedang menghakimi kita..?
Pernah tak terasa mcm org lain sdg menghukum diri kita...?
Pernah tak terasa macam nak lari drpd dunia ni...atau pn jd invisible..?
So that takde org bole nampak kita...takde org bole jumpa kita...takde org bole tegur kita....?
Pernah tak terasa nak tinggalkan segala2nye...? Just give up everything...?
Pernah tak terasa macam takde sape pn yg bole faham diri ini ( except for mama...love u very2 much, mama)...

That's what i feel right now..............
That's what i feel right now.............
I'm helpless...living in this whole wide world....
I'm helpless and alone.....
Dont know what to do...
Dont know what to say....
Sedih sgt2...........sedih sgt2.............

Mama...
ayu rindu sgt2 pada mama...
ayu nak sgt2 mama ada dgn ayu skrg ni...
ayu nak sgt2 duk dgn mama skrg, coz ayu tau, cuma mama aje yg dpt faham ayu..
Cuma mama aje yg bole ubatkan hati ayu ni...
Cuma mama aje yg bole wat ayu kembali seperti sediakala...
Sbb hanya mama aje yg tau apa yg ayu rasa...
Sbb hanya mama aje yg tau cmne nk rawat hati ayu yg tak tenteram ini....

Lagu Jamal Abdillah ni really potrays what i feel right now........

Di dalam suasana indah ini
Dadaku menahan sedih pilu
Terkenang dikau tiada
Untuk bersama diriku
Sedang orang lain bergembira
Ku menumpang senyum di balik duka
Terbayang wajahmu di muka pintu
Bagai menyatakan sesuatu....
Apakah di saat ini
Ada rindu menyentuh hatimu
Bayangkan aku di sini
Menghulurkan salam untukmu
Maafkan segala-galanya
Keterlanjuran tak dilaku
Berderai airmata tak ku sedar
Mengenang kesilapan masa lalu
Di saat ini ku rasa insaf
Oh Tuhan ampunilah dosaku

XOXO, Me, Dont know what to think

Weekend oh weekend ku~

Arini mmg sgt best...hehe :) coz it started with sumthing yg sgt2 menarik...kenangan satu malam yg pnuh gelak ketawa...coz what happenend malam td mmg syok..Best sgt2...smpai tido pn kita asyik teringat kan apa yg berlaku malam td...hehehe :) tp, bak kata jetul mucuk, "rahsia......."
As for this morning, cm biasa la...bgn dgn penuh kebahagiaan slepas dpt berbual pjg dgn mama kat fon...then, pegi mkn lunch dgn nad...hehehe :) mulanye ajat ati nak mkn kat pak akub patin house....tp disebabkan kedai tu tutup, kami pergi la lunch kat sara thai...huhu ~
Then gi ECM lak dgn nad...jalan2 n shopping~ Best sgt :)
Tp, malam ni belum ada pape plan...nak ajak sape lak nk gi kuar makan dinner malam ni, eh..?
Hmm...nad dh bg green light nk kua makan malam...tp nak ajak kwn2 lain gak la... the more the merier, kn..? hehehe :)

Me, XOXO, rigth here waiting...

Pelangi..oh Pelangi ~

Saya sepatutnye membaca buku skrg, tp tak dpt tumpukan perhatian la...

Hmmm...knp eh...?? I think i know why...

Td tiba2 aje terdengar lagu "Pelangi Petang" by Def-Gab-C

(yg asalnye dinyayikan oleh Sudirman)..........

Ni liriknye~

Ku meniti awan yang kelabu...

Ku tempuhi lorong yang berliku...

Mencari sinar yang menerangi, kegelapanku...

Ku percaya pasti suatu masa...

Sang suria kan menyinar jua...

Membawa harapan yang menggunung, bersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi...

Tak bercahaya namun kau berseri..

Tapi cukup menghiburkan, hati ini....

Seharian waktu bersamamu

Tak terasa saat yang berlalu

Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti, pergi jua...

Semua kata2 dlm lagu ni mmg betul, sgt tepat dlm menafsir perjalanan kita skrg ni....

Mmg sgt menusuk jiwa.........

Tak tau la nak ckp cmne dah, tp it suddenly comes to my mind,what we hv now is just like pelangi petang kan........

We hv fun together,we spend our time just to do silly things, but we really enjoy ourself......

Tp nnt, bila dah abis study, all these will be a history for us.......Huhu~

Sedihnye bila pikir that we just hv about 2 years left to b together.........

P/s :

I think i hv 'a pelangi petang'..sumone who's always there for me.......

Tp bila difikirkan semula,kita rasa sedih sgt2...tak tahu mcm mana nak buang kesedihan ni jauh2....

Sbb...

Nnt bila masanye sampai, mstilah dia akan kawin...kan?

Bila dia dah kawin of course la isteri dia takkan kasi kitaorg baik cm skrg...kan?

Even kita pn for sure akan menjauhkan diri dpd dia bila dia dh kawin,tkkan la kita nk jd penyibuk dlm rumahtangga org....

tp....who would be my motivator then...?

I dont think I cn find anyone better in such a limited time...

then, at that time, siapa akan ada di sisi kta, sprt dia slalu lakukan skrg...

So, bole tak kita nak wish..?

I wish for " Pelangi pagi,petang,siang,malam.."

Plz.....................

XOXO, Me, wishing for the rainbow..

A day of nothingness~

Hmm...smalam malam kita baru smpai Kuantan...bersama smangat yg berkobar2 utk menempuh kehidupan dlm posting O&G yg tgal bbrapa ari aje lg ni....dah recharge smula stelah spending the weekend with my family~
Tp arini....huhuhu..kekecewaan melanda semula...
Wahai posting O&G, adakah anda mmg ditakdirkan utk meruntun semangat ku...
adakah aku yg tak cukup kuat utk menempuh posting ini....
betapa payah nya buatku utk meneruskan langkah ini...
ditambah dgn rasa kekecewaan dan kesedihan....apa yg aku mampu lakukan lagi....
Takpelah, ada 2 minggu lagi...
Takpelah, ada byk masa lg....
Takpelah, ada peluang lagi....
Tapi buat hari ini, aku terasa aku telah kalah dgn prasaan sedih dan kecewa ini...setelah apa yg kuharapkan berjalan lancar, tak membuahkan hasil sperti yg aku idamkan.....
Mungkin esok adalah hari yg cerah buatku~

Kebahagiaan:)

I'm at home...wah, bahagia nye dapat duk umah..seronok sgt :) mmg full dgn program la...tp the main agenda is.... SHOPPING :p
ok...lets start from bertolaknye saya dpd kuantan...this is in chronological order :

1. Ptg kamis, kul 5.25pm, sy bertolak dpd IMC...setelah meminta tlg sumone ( jetul jgn gossip kita ok), that sumone pn dgn baik atinye menghantar kita ke terminal...nasib baik sampai on-time, kul 5.55pm...my bus is on 6.00pm...jd nye, sempat la.. Btw, thanks sgt to the one yg antar kan kita ke terminal ptg tu :)

2. Sampai umah around 10.30pm coz that bus lalu jlan yg dh dkat with my house..abah dh tunggu dh kat tepi jalan tu....

3. Then berborak+bcerita+bgelak ketawa dgn mama smpai kul 3.30am... huhu..cian mama tpaksa tido lewat, tp best sgt dpt bcerita mcm2 pd mama...thanks a lot mama :)

4. So on friday, after wat keja umah apa yg patut+ tgk tv, sejurus slps abah balik umah, saya dgn baik ati nye berkata dgn penuh kecomelan," Abah,jom kuar pasni...kita pegi shopping ya..?" Disebabkan abah baik ati serta tak mahu melihat anak ny ini kecewa, walaupun abah penat keja seharian, abah tetap menurut aje kehendak ati anaknye ini...hehe :) thanks a lot abah :)

5. So off we go....first, we went to buy me a few blouses..pegi to a few shops..hehe :) penat mama ngan adik2 tlg kita mencari blouses that like...at last, i bought 3 blouses...itupun after mama dh tunjukkan around a hundred blouses to me...sowi..ayu ni mmg leceh nak wat pilihn...

6. Then, i want a new pair of shoe...we went to jusco lak....stela berjalan2,i found the oe that i want...cantik sgt..hehe :) sy pn membeli nye, tanpa menghiraukan harga yg terpamer di tag nye... ( al-maklum la, scholar dh masuk, maka i dont boher much upon the price...mmg tak berwaspada...)

7.Then, i bought my mama a pair of bonia shoes yg she likes so much...hehe :) seronok rasanye dpt belikan sumthing for her....

8. Baby pn nak cari kasut baru...so, we went for a new quest, to find baby shoes that she likes and fits her....after a while, we succeeded :)

9. Then we went to dinner to a place yg mama nak pegi...hehe :) nyum nyum... slepas semua kenyang, we went back home for zZZzzzzZZZZ :)


That's basically what happen on kamis and yesterday...so what's the plan for today?

• Waiting for adik to come back from UIA gombak...she will be send by Zharif, my future bro-in-law, insya Allah...hehe :) lucky her to hv sumone to send her back home..
• Then, we will all went to lunch outside,i'm thinking of going to malim ikan bakar..sedapnye...
• Slepas zharif balik,we are going to do what i love the most;SHOPPING~ tak sabarnye..

So, that's the plan for now...ok..i've to go mama dh pnggil suruh makan breakfast kat bawah...as prepared by Ija...Ija mmg anak yg baik....pagi2 dh bgn wat breakfast, not like me yg bgn pg n went staight to the laptop n writing my blog.hhehe :) thanks ija :)

Pelik la...Memang pelik~

Td pg i hv the chance to clerk an aborigin ( org asli dlm kata yg lebih sopan), 21 years old, primigravida....her chief complaint, preterm labour....
But, what's interesting about our 'conversation' this morning was when it comes to Family History....
This girl told me, mak dia lahirkan kesemua 12 adik-beradik dia kat umah, disambut oleh ayah nye (wah,hebat sungguh pakcik tu, bole cnduct delivery more than medical students hv to conduct in O&G posting....)

Tp, that's not the story yg wat kita tertarik...it's about what the OA do to the placenta......

She said, " ada yg tanam uri tu, tp kebanyakan nye akan gantung uri tu kat luar rumah..."

I said,in cool tone, " Gantung? Gantung kat luar rumah....?" (though i was already shock at that time sbb uri tu kan ada bau yg pelik, ditambah dgn keadaan nye yg berdarah2 tu....xkan la nak wat 'perhiasan' kat depan umah...)

She anwered, "Mmg gantung kt luar umah...kat bawah pokok ke...kat mana2 la....janji uri tu digantung sblm matahari terbenam..."

I ask her again, "Knp kena gantung sebelum matahari tbenam..?"

She said, " kalau tak, ia akan makan nyawa ibu yg mengandung tu..." ( she means, the mother who hs just giv birth tu...)

I was quite terperanjat gak la dgr penjelasan dia...mcm mana lak uri tu nak makan nyawa mak tu..?
So, wanting to know more, i asked her further, " Pernah jadi ke? mak tu meninggal ke disebabkan uri tu..?"
Terasa mcm crita seram lak...takut gak la...

She said, " Adalah..dulu2....mula2 mak tu akan sakit dlam perut...lepas tu, lama kalu xdiubati, uri itu akan mkan la nyawa ibu itu...."

Huhuhuhuhuhuhu ~

I tried to reason out why do they hv such practise...Mungkin:

1. Diaorg gantung uri tu kat luar rumah- easy for them to see if the placenta is complete or not...bole tgk the chorion and amnion layers, & the cotyledons....any infarcted area or not.... kat luar umah kan lebih terang compared to dalam umah ( as u all know,they all live in very small houses but sooo many people inside one house) so, kt luar mst la lg senang nk wat inspction of the placenta...to ensure no retained placenta in the uterus..........

2. Diaorg gantung sebelum matahari tbenam- for the same reason, mtahari provides the light for them, especially in very rural area where they dont hv electricity...so,kalu check the placenta waktu malam, u may hv missed anything...maybe the membranes are ragged but u couldnt see them properly..so, there is risk of complications to develop post-partumly...

3. Diaorg percaya if tak gantung uri tu sblum matahari terbenam,mula2 ibu tu akan sakit dlm perut...lepas tu, lama2 kalu xdiubati, uri itu akan memakan nyawa ibu itu- where the complication arises as the retained parts of the placenta cn cause PPH, and as we all know, PPH is the number 1 cause of maternal death in Malaysia.....

Kalaulah kita semua dpt bg kesedaran pd mereka..
"bukan uri tu memakan nyawa ibu..tetapi, disebabkan ada lg bahagian uri tu yg tertnggal,ia akan mnyebabkan pendarahan slpas bersalin... yg mungkin membawa maut..."

They should be told that if not managed/treated properly ( stop the bleeding, resuscitation, transfussion etc),it will cause death.....they should not go to see bomoh or pawang coz they'll only jampi...nothing much for the woman if she is only treated with jampi....

Memang nampak pelik..Tp,itulah kehidupan....kita semua berbeza....

That's just my opinion....
What do u think....

XOXO, Me, differently...

A Very Interesting Monday

Hari ni mmg sgt menarik....

1. Setelah berusaha sedaya-upaya, CWU yg 'tercinta' berjaya diselesaikan, pd jam 6.30pg...hehe :) ngantok punya pasal, i went to sleep sampai kul 9.30am, so, pegi hosptal dh lewat sgt :P

2. Kmudian pegi antenat, cari2 pt utk cp dgn doc hakim pg esok....huhuhu :( xde pt pn kat antenat tu....

3. Ptg td, balik dgn jetul then mkn2 goreng pisang n ABC kat cafe :) hehe :P spanjang ptg tu kita mengusik dan menyakat cik jetul smpai merah padam mukanye.... sowi jetul...kta kan mmg suka kacau jetul....

4. Setelah berusaha gigih ( tipu betul, x gigih lgsg...) mlm td dpt la clerk sorg pt G5P4 at 38wks, GDM with breech presentation...itupun stelah saya menumpang waktu on-call nad ngan us serta meminjam pt farhah :) thanks a lot nad,us, farhah.....

5. The most interesting part of today is, i managed to see twin delivery- 1st cephalic presentatn, 2nd breech..the first baby dilahirkan dgn vacuum tp bukannye vacuum kiwi yg slalu nampak kat lowrisk tu.ni metal vacuum..mmg very interesting....however, i think sum complication may hv arise, as the review from paeds doc suspected fracture....huhu...harap xde jadi pape pd baby tu..the 2nd baby seems to be normal.....

6. Yg paling seronok about today is that, while waiting for the patient to giv birth to the twin, kitaorg duk berkumpul kat depan tu, sambil berborak2, duk mengata 'sedara-mara' siapa la yg jd 'nurse yg plg disygi' kat hi-risk tu...Lg syok bila Salam dtg membawa kcang nye and offer to everyone...hehehehe :P klakar sgt (",)

7. I'm supposed to be reading for my cp esok pg (takkkkuuuuuutttt nye!!) but, here i'm writing about my day...ok...ok...cukup la ni...kena semangat and baca for cp esok~

P/s- lagi kelakar bila kita dapat tau a 'new definition' of the all-time-favourite "CP"...hehe :)

XOXO, Me, "CP" baby.....

Bila kebosanan ditambah dgn kemalasan......

I was so bored tonite so i just surf the intnt to read anything interesting (i should be reading 10 teachers, tp disebabkan kemalasan melanda diriku, i choose to read ' stories', sebenarnye love stories and poems)... Then i came across this story... I think it's interesting, so i just put it up in here.. Hope u all will enjoy the story :)

Best Friends' LOVE STORY ...



10th grade:
As he sat there in the english class, he stared at the girl next to him. She was his so called 'best friend'. He stared at her and wished that she was his.
But she didn't notice him like that, and he knew it.
After class, she walked up to him and asked him for the notes she had missed the day before. He handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her and he wanted her to know that he doesnt want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy.....He just kept it in his heart....


11th grade:
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked him to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so,he did.
As he sat next to her on the sofa, he stared at her soft eyes, wishing that she was his.
After 2 hours, one movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.She looked at him, said 'thanks' and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.


Senior year:
The day before prom she walked to his locker.
"My date is sick..He's not gonna go" she said.
"Well, I didn't have a date," he replied..
in 7th grade, they made a promise that if neither of them had dates, they would go together- just as 'best friends'.
So they did.


Prom night:
They went together as 'best friends'....
After everything was over, he was standing at her front door step. He stared at her as she smiled at him and stared with her crystal eyes. Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave him a kiss on the cheek
He wanted her to be his, but she doesn't think of him like that, and he knew it. .
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.



Graduation day:
He watched as she went up on stage to get her diploma.
He wanted her to be his, but she doesn't think of him like that, and he knew it. .
Before everyone went home, she came to him in her smock and hat, and cried as he hugged her. Then she lifted her head from his shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks"..
She gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.

On her wedding day:
He went to her wedding ceremony.
That girl is getting married.
He watched her married to another man and drive off to her new life..
He wanted her to be his, but she doesn't think of him like that, and he knew it. .
But before she drove away, she came to him and said "Thanks,you came!".
She kissed him on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.


A day passed, then a week, then a month, then years passed by...


He looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be his 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.

"I stare at him wishing that he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.I wish he would tell me he loved me!
'I wish I did too...' he thought to himself, and he cried....


So, what do u think.? As for me this story totally contradicts the well-known quote
that says " if u love sumone, let him be free...if he's for u, he'll come back to u..."
When u love sumone let him/her know, so that u'll not regret it in the future... Hehehe :)

XOXO, Me, still wondering....

Sabtu..Sabtu... Kesunyian di kala hari minggu ~

Arini sabtu yg tak productive...malas sgt nk wat pape slain tito :)

Tp, tghari tadi kuar makan lunch ngan hana & wani...

then, kuar smula gi ECM ngan hana, dh lama tak kuar berdua dgn hana sejak hana dgn 'ehem-ehem'...hehehe :) windu lak time dulu kitaorg slalu bsama....

Then balik dekat kul 4....maka bermula lah episod kesunyian kesorangan diriku di kala ujung minggu............ Hmmm, tak tau la knp tp kita mmg tak bole duk sorg2...tp mungkin jugak disebabkan apa yg terjadi sepanjang minggu ni..........
1. CP tak bergerak2 lagi..masih di takuk lama....

2. Case write up tak start pn lgi.....huhu...malas nye.....

3. Buku log tu byk nye yg masih kosong lagi, procedure tak wat, c-sec pn tak abis tgk...

4. The most important reason,hmmm...mungkin disebabkan apa y dah terjadi spjg mgu ni kot..

Org yg slalu ada di sisi di kala diri ini perlukan semangat, kini smakin berubah mjadi seorg yg sgt berbeza...

seolah2 dirinya melarikan diri dpdku...

seolah2 dirinya tidak mengenaliku...

seolahnya kami cuma kenalan biasa sedangkan dia teman karibku.............

Apakah diri ini telah terkasar bicara padanya...

Apakah diri ini telah mengguris hatinya...

Tolonglah....tolonglah kembali seprti asalnya, di mana kita boleh berbicara tentang apa sekali pun.......

kerana diri ini tak mampu utk terus begini...

kerana diri ini perlukan kata2 semangat darinya....
kerana dia lah yg sering memberikanku keyakinan dan kepercayaan utk terus memandang ke hadapan dan meneruskan perjuangan di kala diri ini dalam kegelapan..................................

There is one song " Careless Whisper" whick keep on playing in my head thru out this nite...hmm, lebih kurang sama je with my situation right now.........Kan???

Careless Whisper

I Feel So Unsure

As I take your hand

And lead you to the dance floor

As the music dies

Something in your eyes

Calls to mind a silver screen

And all its sad goodbyes

I'm never gonna dance again

Guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend

I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that I've been given

So I'm never gonna dance again

The way I danced with you...

Time can never mend

The careless whispers of a good friend

To the heart and mindIgnorance is kind

There's no comfort in the truth

Pain is all you'll find

Tonight the music seems so loud

I wish that we could lose this crowd

Maybe it's better this way

We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say

We could have been so good together

We could have lived this dance forever

But now who's gonna dance with me

Please stay.....

At this time around, i need my Mama coz she'll know what should i do.... but i dont want to bother her with my problems.........Mama, ayu rindu sgt pd mama...

So, what should i do...........

XOXO, Me, sunyi dalam keseorangan....