Sabtu..Sabtu... Kesunyian di kala hari minggu ~

Arini sabtu yg tak productive...malas sgt nk wat pape slain tito :)

Tp, tghari tadi kuar makan lunch ngan hana & wani...

then, kuar smula gi ECM ngan hana, dh lama tak kuar berdua dgn hana sejak hana dgn 'ehem-ehem'...hehehe :) windu lak time dulu kitaorg slalu bsama....

Then balik dekat kul 4....maka bermula lah episod kesunyian kesorangan diriku di kala ujung minggu............ Hmmm, tak tau la knp tp kita mmg tak bole duk sorg2...tp mungkin jugak disebabkan apa yg terjadi sepanjang minggu ni..........
1. CP tak bergerak2 lagi..masih di takuk lama....

2. Case write up tak start pn lgi.....huhu...malas nye.....

3. Buku log tu byk nye yg masih kosong lagi, procedure tak wat, c-sec pn tak abis tgk...

4. The most important reason,hmmm...mungkin disebabkan apa y dah terjadi spjg mgu ni kot..

Org yg slalu ada di sisi di kala diri ini perlukan semangat, kini smakin berubah mjadi seorg yg sgt berbeza...

seolah2 dirinya melarikan diri dpdku...

seolah2 dirinya tidak mengenaliku...

seolahnya kami cuma kenalan biasa sedangkan dia teman karibku.............

Apakah diri ini telah terkasar bicara padanya...

Apakah diri ini telah mengguris hatinya...

Tolonglah....tolonglah kembali seprti asalnya, di mana kita boleh berbicara tentang apa sekali pun.......

kerana diri ini tak mampu utk terus begini...

kerana diri ini perlukan kata2 semangat darinya....
kerana dia lah yg sering memberikanku keyakinan dan kepercayaan utk terus memandang ke hadapan dan meneruskan perjuangan di kala diri ini dalam kegelapan..................................

There is one song " Careless Whisper" whick keep on playing in my head thru out this nite...hmm, lebih kurang sama je with my situation right now.........Kan???

Careless Whisper

I Feel So Unsure

As I take your hand

And lead you to the dance floor

As the music dies

Something in your eyes

Calls to mind a silver screen

And all its sad goodbyes

I'm never gonna dance again

Guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend

I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that I've been given

So I'm never gonna dance again

The way I danced with you...

Time can never mend

The careless whispers of a good friend

To the heart and mindIgnorance is kind

There's no comfort in the truth

Pain is all you'll find

Tonight the music seems so loud

I wish that we could lose this crowd

Maybe it's better this way

We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say

We could have been so good together

We could have lived this dance forever

But now who's gonna dance with me

Please stay.....

At this time around, i need my Mama coz she'll know what should i do.... but i dont want to bother her with my problems.........Mama, ayu rindu sgt pd mama...

So, what should i do...........

XOXO, Me, sunyi dalam keseorangan....