hehehe..byk benda nak kena wat sbenarnye ni, but, rasa meluap2 nak share sumthing kat sini...
Smlm lepas je dpd pasar malam kat cenderawasih...so, kitaorg (me+nad+len+ani) makan bersama2...
So, as usual, kitaorg bersembang...and ani said sumthing that made me think for almost a day now...
Hmmm..
She said, kita slalunya tak menghargai apa yg ada depan mata kita...tp bila kita dh tiada depan mata, baru kita akan rasa kehilangan...
Huhu..saya sedih sgt2 mendengar crita yg disampaikan cik ani time tu...
Owh, saya kdg2 tertanya2, mungkinkah saya ni tak menghargai insan di depan mata kita..?
hmmm...
what should i do...
i am only a girl,
trapped in her own feelings,
not knowing what to do,
not wanting anything to change between me and dia....
tp asyik je memasang angan2 utk memiliki apa yg bukan milikku, mungkin takkan mampu menjadi milikku...Hmm...but at the same time, when she asked me a few questions about me+dia...i'm speechless..xbole jawab..lidah saya kelu...
ani, saya tak mampu nak wat pape...saya tak mungkin akan menjadi perigi yg mencari timba...tak mungkin dan saya takkan mampu berbuat begitu kerana saya sedar siapalah saya ni~
ntahla..even me myself dont have the answer...
According to Ani's theory of 3 weeks,
kita akan rasa suka pd sumone ( to be highlighted here "SUKA")
bila kita rapat dgn sumone yg opposite jantina dgn kita,selama 3minggu atau lebih dpd itu
this is mainly due to attachment..
as an example, bila kita dh segroup dgn sorg tu, asyik wat keja sama2,
kita akan terasa, 'ok gak mamat ni, baik gak dia ni sebenar nye, best gak dia ni rupanye eh...' walaupun b4 dis, kita tak suka pn mamat tu..
and here is when my question came,
"ani, so, kalau cmtu, cmne kta nak differentiate yg kita suka that sumone only becoz of attachment or kita btul2 suka pd dia...(aka fall in love la tu..ahaks~)"
and her answer was very simple,
"kalau kita dh tak de dgn org tu or dh separate dh dgn org tu (eg dh xsegroup, dh xde wat keja sama2 dgn dia..) kita dh takde la feel anything dh..xde la terasa rindu ke..rasa nk jumpa dia lagi even for a while ke....tp kalau dh separate dh dgn that guy tp kita still terasa sprt itu (betapa bestnya mamat tu, kalau bole nk sama grup dgn dia lg, nak sama2 dgn dia lg, nk jumpa dia lg etc..), makna nye, mungkin the feeling is real...."
Ertiny, kalau dat feeling is just due to the attachment, after kita dh tak sama2 dgn dia, kita takde la rasa lebih2 pd dia..xde la rindu nk jumpa dia pn..xdela terasa dunia ni xlengkap tanpanya..
tp kalau betul2 suka, maknanye, akan kekal terasa yg mamat tu best, hebat, menarik, memang syok abis la...hihi..kalau bole nk sama grup ke or ada pape yg bole wat kita jumpa dia lg..da world is not complete selagi mamat tu takde...hahahaha :D me exaggerating, as usual :P
Ahaks...
and i keep on judging on my feelings, there and then, up until now...
Hmmm..what say you...?
2 comments:
And..if kte jumpa that guy again after dah takde pape attachment..kte akan rasa lagi best..and mmg best la mamat ni..pastu when the time is up untuk balik to our usual life (aka without him)..haha..kte akan rasa sgt sedey..n ada rasa pelik dalam hati..huhu
Thats when you know that you are falling in LOVE my dear sis..hahahah~ and they use the term falling in love sbb kte tak sgaja..its not in the plan..you suddenly `ter'..hehehehe..
and you know what..no matter what happen..i will always love you my only kakakku yang chomel..huhu~
Adik..huhu..sgt terharu bc komen awak ni..thanks dik..sayang awak :* muah..
regarding this entry, i think i know what u mean..ahaks...
time kita 3rd year, slalu je ada sumone yg will help me, and that sumone knows when to do so...dia xkan tolong when kita tak mintak tolong but he will always stay around to make sure that i can do it, and when i cant, dia akan membantu~ but at that time, i took everything for granted..benda dpn mata mmg xkan nampak n i was looking for sumthing/sumone which was far from my reach.
and now bila kita in 4th year, i hv to do everything by myself, n baru terasa betapa best nye that sumone itu...tu la, masa ada depan mata, xnak hargai...hahaha :P padan muka to me~
tp, i am just a girl in this big, big world and i am helpless, i cant do anything~
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