just me....

entah kenapa..
memang sgt2 rasa diri ni very sesak, semak sgt2 kepala otak yg bingung ni..

does it matter that at this age, i am still single...?
kawan2 keliling kebanyakan nye dah pergi towards another step in their life..
at least dah ada bakal suami..or tunang..
and banyak yg dah ada suami pun..
and some, dah ada anak pun..xpun, baby is on the way..
but me..?
hmmm..

dont think that this gonna affect me this much..
but bila asyik2 je org tanya, bila lagi..bila lagi..
haisyh...
kadang tu terfikir..
can i just tinggalkan semua nye dan lari ke tempat lain yg xde org kisah..?
cant i just be me...?

semua ni sgt membeban kan..
seriously...
especially me being anak sulung..
my sister dah ada calon nye pn..
tp, of course la kena wait for her kakak yg sgt L ni...
haisyh...

tp, what else can i do..?
i barely meet a man, let alone a single and available man...
hidup saya cuma berkisar sekitar rumah-hospital-rumah...

org cakap, kan banyak doktor2 kat hospital tu...
yelah!!..
all the guy doctors that i know...
either married..or engaged..or NON MUSLIM..
so...?

and should i change me just to make sure someone will like me...?
what the point of finding sumone who like the 'fake me'..?

entahla..
i am not perfect..
i know that...
i am full of flaws...
yes, i know that too..

tapi..plz..let me be just me...