Lets write,hmm..nak tulis apa eh..?
1. saya dh menjadi sgt2 determine yg xkan ada sape2 bole wat sesuka ati yg diaog nak..haha..and the cruel side of me has started to be revealed..watch out!!!!
2.td kena present seminar and i was very2 dumb coz i didnt check my slides after i've finished doing it... ada satu slide tu, ayatnye tergantung ' to prevent the spread of z'.. really wada? what is 'Z"..?Z..? does anything that starts with 'z' has anything to do with the topic..? memang sgt2 memalukan..after 2 sleepless night bertungkus lumus membuat slide, dan saya tulis sendiri tanpa membuat activity copy-and-paste, sy telah melihatkan seolah2nye sy meng'copy-and-paste'.. sgt2 malu ;(
3. td dh beli tiket balik umah, jumaat ni (coz tiket kamis dh abis..) so, huray!! balik umah :) i like~
4. sgt2 ngantok..sgt2 mau tido..dan sgt2 malas..tp kena merajinkan diri jua..uhu~
5.hah,td dikejutkan by ntah sape2 ntah yg tiba2 call dan menyanyi2 ntah lagu apa kat tepon tu..so annoying!!nak tido pn susah!! org tu siap ckp kita sombong lak tu sbb ignoring dia punye calls..
( daaa..sape nak layan mat rempit yg tak tentu pasal, ntah dpd mana ntah..gilos agak nye..)

p/s: nak crita sumthing about sumone tp nmpak nye xbole la..."gossip-girl-mode" has to be deactivated for a while ~

XOXO, Me, still wondering, still day-dreaming..

Fullstop.

Enough of these non-sense..Enough is enough!!

Dont change me into someone that i'm not..

I cant take these anymore..

Me, cant take these anymore.....................................

The 2 Songs about 2 Girls..

Ni lagu ttg mucuk..dia comel sgt..dia baik sgt but at the sme time, she is very2 naughty,mmg nak slalu kena babap ni :P
Dia suka nyanyi lagu ni..dia kata lgu ni ttg saya, tp sbnarnye, lagu ni ttg dia..dia dan ehem-ehem :P
Nape..cuba bca liriknye..mmg sgt masuk dgn kisah idup mucuk yg comel ni..
Hehe..sowi dear, i cant resist the temptation la, nak gak letak lirik nye dlm blog ni :P

"Diam-Diam Jatuh Cinta" by Ramlah Ram

Diam-diam.. berpandangan..
Mata bertentang mata..
Malu-malu.. aku malu..
Kau buat begitu..

Jeling-jeling.. kau menjeling
Senyumanmu menggoda..
Lama-lama.. dalam diam
Aku jatuh cinta..

Beginikah rasanya
Sakit asmara..
Siang malam gelisah..
Ingin bersama..

Ku tunggu, ku menanti
Kata cintamu..
Biar senang dihati
Ku disampingmu

Jangan-jangan kau berpura
Sembunyikan hatimu..
Bukan-bukan ku tak tahu
Debar didadamu..

Kita saling sama cinta
Tetapi malu-malu
Diam-diam jadi rindu
Rinduku padamu

Dulu malu tapi mahu
Kini baruku tahu
Diam-diam jatuh cinta
Bersama akhirnya....

Hihi..comel kan lagu nye..sgt sweet..kisah ni ttg mucuk dan .....
hehe..bak kata mucuk sendiri,
sorg kurus, sorg tembam..
sorg wangi, sorg busyuk...
dan kita tambah kan lg...
sorg nakal, sorg baik...
sorg putih, sorg lg, xtau la colour apa..colourless kot :P (jgn marah tau mucuk)
sorg manja, sorg penyayang..
hehe..but i really want to see both of u together..forever..smoga bahagia sampai ke syurga ye cyg.... :D

Hmm..my song pulak..To mucuk, jgn berebut dgn kita...kita dah cop lagu ni dulu tau. hihi :D
I like this song sbb, lagu dia catchy and suara marsha pun comel aje dlm lagu ni..hihi..


" Yang Terbaik" by Marsha~

Ku selalu memikirkan tentang kita
Apa pun harapan yang dikejar
Kerna aku masih penuh rasa ragu
Melihat kau seperti tak bersungguh
Jika kau mencinta
Berikanlah ku rasa
Diriku dah berikan yang terbaik
Dan bukannya nak mengungkit
Siapa benar siapa salah
Siapa menang siapa kalah
Dah berikan yang terbaik
Memaksa hati merisik
Mungkin kau bukan teman hidup
Yang terbaik untukku...

(Lirik lagu ni dipotong di hujung nye kerana sbb2 yg tak dpt dijelaskan..hahaha )

Ops..esok saya ada seminar la..dgn Mr Zam..dan saya tak baca pape pn lagi.camne nak present ni....nape ni...xde semangat la..tolong..tolong..mana semangat ni..dh macam sgt2 xde perasaan skrg ni..huhu..doakan saya kembali berjuang dgn pnuh perasaan dan penuh smgt ye :)

XOXO, Me, singing a song..

New posting = ortho...semangat!!!!

Arini,mula la ari 1st utk ortho posting..huhu..banyak nye nak kena blaja...banyak nye nak kena baca..huhu..hope that i can do it~
anyway, td call mama..baby yg ankat the fon..huhu..windu nye pada my little pumpkin ni..hmmm..bila dia sebut pamello..i answered tangerine... ( this is our little game, whenever one of us says 'pomello' the other has to answer 'tangerine'...syarat nye, u'll only hv to answer when the one saying 'pomello' is using her own voice :D hihi...) i miss her sooooo much...
then, she passed the fon to mama..huhu..how i missed mama..ni baru beberapa hari terpisah dpd mereka.. (xberpisah pn, cuma berada dlm jarak yg jauh but still, i do call them often....)

Xpe..xpe...as long as i do my best here, that will be enough..berusaha!!!

Huhu..td ada incident yg sungguh tidak menyelerakan..sumthing happen..menyebabkan saya tak dapat makan my favourite musley (xingat cmne nak eja la..) nampak nye kena tunggu smpai balik umah skali lagi la supaya dpt ganti dgn yg baru..sbb kat cni, xdpt jumpa la mana2 kedai yg jual musley.. haha :D

Maka, hari ni bermula la quest sy dlm mencari notes2 anat yg dh lama disimpan bwh almari tu..demi membuat persediaan menghadapi hari2 ortho yg mencabar kelak..huhu..tp ni,mata dah nantok..katil dh memanggil2...hehe :P macam mau tito aje ni..hehe :P
Nitey nite ~

XOXO, Me, still in holiday mood, ortho mode yet to be activated...

I'm gonna miss those kisses~

Basically, arini dh ari ahad, 14 february 2010, hari terakhir sy duk umah bfor balik ke kuantan (sbb tiket ari slasa dh abis, sy tpaksa pulang ke kuantan isn) utk memulakan posting ortho..huhu
Hari ni juga ialah hari azi nikah, one of my beloved fren in dis whole wide world...azi, congrats..smoga bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat ye :)
Hmm,apa yg membuatkan kita tak dpt tido mlm ni..
1.kena balut adiah sbb td xsempat nk gi counter mntak org tu wrap kan, coz dh terlambat nak gi kenduri umah mak long :P so, lpas je bayar, trus je memecut ke batu berendam ~
2. Boring la asyik kna tido aje tiap malam..
3.Nak menghayati suasana malam yg sunyi dan hening ini bfor pulang ke kuantan..uhu~
4. Saya asyik je terasa how much im going to miss everyone..Mama,Abah,Baby, and Ana+Ija~

Stiap pagi, saya dikejutkan by my little princess with a kiss on my cheek, "Kakyu, bangun, dah subuh dah ni..."
As I'm very reluctant to open up my eyes, mama will come and kiss me,trying hard to make me wake up.."ayu..bangun sayang...ni dah pukul brapa ni.."
Then, after my Subuh prayer, i'll go down and wait for Baby as she is going to school, and then, another kiss from her, before she went to school...
Then, before abah went to his office, saya salam tgn abah and cium tgn abah, and also then, i get another kiss on my cheeks...
In the morning,afternoon evening or even at nite,after helping mama, she will reward me with lots of kisses and hugs...
When baby has come back from school, when we joke around, laughing, teasing each other, she'll also give me kisses spontaneously...
Lastly, beforei went to sleep at night, there will be good night kisses from everyone, Mama,Abah, and Baby...
So tell me...How am i going to get through without these kisses in my coming days in Kuantan...
The first few days will be the toughest one..But i know i can do it, coz then, whenever i'm free, i can getback and claim back all the kisses that i've missed ^_^

XOXO, Me, another day with kisses..

Heart, We Will Forget Him
~ Emily Dickinson Heart, we will forget him,
You and I, tonight!
You must forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done pray tell me,
Then I, my thoughts, will dim.
Haste! 'lest while you're lagging
I may remember him!

arini best sgt :)

Best nye cuti ni..hihi..arini i spend most of my time with mama..yeay..seronok sgt2..kitaorg breakfast sama2, as usual, plus we talk, and talk, and tlak...mama byk bg nasihat..byk share penglaman hidup nye with me..lucky me :) that's why mama is my best fren :) then, after doing the house chores, kitaorg masak lunch sama2.hihi..seronok sgt2...disebabkan abah xdapat balik mkn lunch and baby ada rehearsal merentas desa (or merentas 'tasik',as what her teacher said,as we live in Taman Tasik Utama),so, it's another me+mama time..yahoo!!!best sgt2..

Then in the evening, i waited for baby, bila dia dh balik,mula la kecoh satu rumah as she keeps on teasing me and making jokes all the time dan membuatkan saya ketawa terbahak2,,hihi..

Bila abah dah balik kerja,dh dekat kul 7, abah ajak kua mkan..hehe.
ke mana..?

Umbai..nyumnyum..waktu tu gak my tummy dh menyanyi dah, mengenangkan kesedapan ikan bakar, sotong bakar and segala seafood yg bakar2 la ;) so, lpas solat mgrin, we headed to Umbai for our dinner..

Dinner kali ni mmg special, sbb, sedddddddddddaaaaaaaaappppp sgt2..Kenyang sgt..thanks a lot abah (sbb kita asyik duk mintak nak makan ikan bakar..so,abah pn bwk la anaknye yg agak mengada2 ni gi mkn kat sana, wlaupun last week, abah,mama and baby baru je makan kat situ..hehehe..taktik ku berjaya!!!)

So,lpas dinner,kami pn pulang...lalalalalala~ Bahagianye idup saya ni..alhamdullillah ;)

(Tp,still,ada sumting yg menganggu dlm hati ini..sumthing that i rather left behind..xpayah pk kan lgsg...huhu..mengapa perlu perasaan ini mencengkam jiwa~)

XOXO,Me, Happy nye duk umah,but still missing......

Cuti..yeay!!

best nye cuti kat umah..duk umah..tgk tv..main games kat fb..hihi..mcm xde pape nak wat je kan :P
tp smlm mmg best...gi shopping :) i like...mmg shopping habis2an la..hehehe ;) beli 2pairs of shoes (mmg i gila dgn kasut2 cantik ni..),beli bag yg sgt2 cantik plus beli edt kylie minogue showtime :D hehehe...best..sudah lama saya mencari, bru kini sy berjumpa dgn nye :) then, in the evening, we went to pasar mlm kat bukit beruang..tp stall yg jual ns krabu yg sdap tu tak bukak...so, abah ajak mkn kat tomyam klasik~ yeay!! best sgt restaurant ni..dh la cntik tmpst nye, mknn nye pn best...keeeeennyyyaaaaang sgt mkn :)
arini, xtau nak wat ape ni...dh wat breakfast mihun goreng pg td,for lunch, xdpt menu lg dpd mama, so, blum masuk dapur lg...hehe..ni yg curi masa menulis blog ni ;ptp, yg penting, arini ramai yg start wat forensic posting ~ i dh lepas dh, so skrg korg la pulak ye merasai perasaan mjd CSI, sgt best, sgt menarik..sila enjoy dgb beriya nye spjg posting forensic ni ye korg :D
Lastly, hmmm, no words cn express what i'm feeling these days..what feeling..hmm..no answer can be given..it's for u to guess ;P
Btw, tak sabar nye nak gi Langkawi sabtu ni..yeay!!! :D

XOXO, Me, cant wait any longer...

My Day..seronoknye..

Hari ni mmg sgt menarik..eventhough pg2 dah ada seminar dgn dr samsul, which started with mijah's presentation on headache, then continued with seminar on nicotine abuse..huhu...while in the class, saya ni tak dpt duk diam..hehe..only those sitting near to me dlm lect hall tu td+mucuk yg tau knp..haha..tp bila keputusan nye diketahui,barula bole sy focus :P

Tgahari nye, kua gi mkn lunch kat sekilau dgn Yuyu i love you, Kay, Len..mula2 ajat ati nak mkn kat Pak Akob..tp tutup..pastu ingat nk mkn ns kukus yg cedap tu..tp tutup gka..last2, sbb perut terlalu berkeroncong, mkn je kat stall tepi jalan tu..haha :P

Petang nye, anta Wnu tersayang gi mandi-manda..Wnu dh bersih dh..hihi..i love u Wnu :D

Lpas tu, after dh solat n siap2, apalagi...sy pn mjalankan aktvt sy..pegi tgk interkulliyah nye games..best sgt2 tgk volley final...team medic mmg sgt2 handal...mmg kagum la tgk..rasa cm nak melompat aje tgk diaorg main td..hihi :D n of course, mereka menang.. Congratz!!! :D

Then, pegi lak tgk bsketball sisters..final gak..mmg sgt2 sengit...Medic vs Nursing... Hmm..ganas sgt3 budak2 nursing tu main...macam tgk rugby+gusti/tinju+segala aksi keganasan yg ada (adik2 jgn tiru aksi2 ini di rumah..berbahaya...) jgn sangka nurses yg sopan santun itu takkan mengganas...hahaha :P mmg penuh keseraman dan kegeraman tgk diaorg berkasar dgn kwn2 kita..mana bole main kasar..huhu..tp at last, our team yg menang..tahniah korg...U all deserve to win :D

Ok...game basket tu abes around 740..haha..pulang ke bilik dh lewat magrib dah..ish.ish.ish..
Lepas meng'deal'kan dgn kwn2 posting lepas (which i was very glad that mereka semua sgt2 co-operative..sanggup je agree even with such a short notice, iaitu less than an hour..hihi), we decided to go and have dinner together gak..
(more like mcm ugutan aje..hihi..sbb lama dh tak jumpa mereka n borak2 bersama2..walaupun 2org tak dpt turut serta, tp still, i want to go out with them gak..by hook or by crook)
So, at 9 pm, we went to secret recipe and get together..makan2..borak2..usik2..sakat2..gelak2..hehe..but i wish that we have more time..rasa sangat2 sekejap kuar dgn korg...miss our moments together in 3rd year..miss those time when we were together~ Korang..thank you sgt2 kua makan td..best sgt2..
wlaupn ada yg dh sgt2 lapar...sgt2 penat..tp sanggup jugak kuar makan2 dgn ktaorg...sgup gak tunggu ktaorg ni..thanks a lot ye..sgt2 appreciate it :D
So, apabila saya pulang, saya pn mula la merasakan, betapa bahagianya idup saya ni..
Syukur alhamdulillah :)
I'm realy2 grateful for He has given me a very meaningful and beautiful life :)

XOXO, me happy,very2 happy :)

A day, another busy day...

Arini sgt memenatkan, tp best :)
Pg td, ktaorg smua g KK Beserah..pg2 ada briefing pasal school health program, then, kitaorg smua mengubahkan bilik seminar kt ctu mjadi operation room C2 dlm ktaorg mengejar masa utk siap kan proposal presentation utk esk~ huhu..smua org sgt2 tekun n bsungguh2...I like :)
Then, at 3pm, kitaorg ada briefing ttg methadone program and hiv programs yg ada kt kuantan ni..then, balik uia..smpai imc at 450pm...then,kita, aj, wan kd and zarol, pi HTAA utk lawat makcik Robiah, pt kt KK Balok yg ktaorg wat homevisit...bila ktaorg smp je kt ctu, tpancar kegembiraan kt wajah mkcik tu...seriously, this is really2 wat kan sy sgt terharu..eventhough we just cameto visit her for a while, tak sangka doing sumting, as simple as coming to the ward, cn bring a smile to her face :) masa2 cmni la yg mbuatkan kita rasa bahagia memilih bidang ni :) really~ Thanks a lot to AJ, Wan KD and Zarol coz sgt2 baik, sgup pi lawat makcik tu dgn kita wlaupn msg2 kpenatan..korg mmg rock!!! :)
anyway, ni tgh kat meeting rum level 3 KOM, smua tgh berusaha wat part masing2 utk presentation proposal esk pg..chiayok2 smua...go,go C2!!!
P/S- harapan utk 'mkn sdap' tpaksa di-surpress-kan buat smentara waktu,coz sy bz and .......... No possible time for now, even weekend pn takbole gak...sob,sob ;(

XOXO, Me still busily waiting~

Past and Present...

I was a bit surprised when suddenly 'the dark side of my past' comes back haunting me, today..
Hmmm..why..? i really feel that it is disturbing...
I dont want to hv anything to do with 'that past' of my life.. It was a mistake, a foolish mistake, a dark dot in my blessful life...sometimes i regret for having that part of my life...tapi takpe la..life moves on, and so am i...dan saya sgt2 berani mengatakan, saya sgt bahagia skrg.... and i really dont want to hv anything to do with 'it' anymore...

The past was a foolish mistake..
A dark side of my younger years...
A part of my life that i really regret...
The part that i dont want to remember, dont want to know or even to hear anything about it anymore..
The part that i wish that i can delete forever in my life...
The part that really hurts, that had broken my heart into pieces....
Why should it come back to me after several years..after im happy with my present life..?
When im sure of myself, when i'm once again my true self...
I just want to tell 'that dark side of the past"...
It's all over..It's a history and it means nothing for me...
Coz now, im sure of my present...and i really hope to be my future..
My present life is such a bliss...
And I thank Allah for that..
For giving me this present of life.................
A gift that is priceless..one which i'll treasure for the rest of my life...
One that i hope will always be mine, till the end...

On request..shoudl i write about "gossip girl"...?hmmm~

Ada la seorg tu...dia suruh kita tulis pasal myself as a gossip girl..
Hmm, am i really a gossiper...?i dont think so...coz i know i cn keep others' secrets :) hahaha..
Tp kdg2 tu, trasa gak mcm gossip girl, sbb bk jugak la benda yg kita tau...hahaha :P
mestila sbb sy ada sumber yg sgt best ;) hehe..
tq la di atas 'perkongsian' itu...
wlaupun skadar berkongsi gossip, at least ada gk la benda yg di'share'kan...hahaha :P

Anyway, disebabkan permintaan (eceh,eceh..perasan la tu..xde la permintaan sgt pn...skadar percakapn je rasanye td tu...), this is what i cn write, as a gossip girl, who has been all the way along what u two have been going...to the both 'he' and 'she', this is for u :)

Other people may say that ur life are far apart...Two different worlds collide with another...
So very different from each other...
But the differences have been keeping U both together up until now...
Other peope might have said, U both are not suitable for each other..
But, what really suits the both of U, it's up for U both to decide....
Some people might say U are better than her, while others might say U deserve better than him...
But, really, it doesnt matter at all...coz they dont know both of U,
as much as U know her...as much as U care for him...
as much as she knows U...as much as he cares about U....

Mcari satu persamaan dlm seribu perbezaan...
Mcari ketenangan dlm kegelisahan...
Mcari kebahagiaan dlm kesamaran..
Mgkn tak mampu dinilai dgn cuma kata2...
Kerana mainan perasaan, adalah suatu yg tak pasti...
Mungkn dgn keyakinan hati, serta diiringi ikhlasnya doa drpd jiwa yg suci....
Sebuah mimpi bakal menjadi suatu realiti........

(U both = korang berdua la... U = him, U = her)
So, kpd korang berdua, I wish both of U, all the best tau...I'm always on Ur side...hahaha :P
P/s : sori la kalu tersinggung membaca post ni...this is what i really to tell to both of U

XOXO, still here alone but not lonely..

A day full of .....

This is about yesterday...smlm mmg la tsgt penatnye...disebabkan cwu tak siap,seminar pun xprepare, i didnt get enough sleep pn,cuma sempat tido kul430 smp 630..haha..dh la time tido tu mimpinye horror...mmg xnyenyak tido nye...so, esok nye tu, iaitu semalam pg, seminar pn dipresentkan dgn ntah ape2 je la...byk yg kita tak tulis, so, membebel la sorg2 kt depan tu..haha..kesian kat mrk2 yg mdgr..

Then, i tried to print out my cwu kat library,tp, malangnye, disebabkan matrc card xbwk,jdnye, xbole la nk print...waaaaa..stress btul..time tu dh pk mcm2, kt mana nk cr tmpt print lain,sbb library tutup kul12..seminar ktaorg start kul 1030 smp dkat2 pkul 1..huhu..tp, luckily, wan kd ada mjadi my heroin for that day,...kita print je pd wan kd...n she xnak kita bayar pape pn...baiknye ati wan kd..thanks byk2 ye wan kd :)

Then, ptd smlm ada islamic input..lpas je abis islamic input yg agak2 lama n xfaham sgt tu, maka sy pn pulg ke bilik dan apalagi, call mama n bergossip...haha...setengah jam tu duk berborak dgn mama...best sgt2..dh la dh lama xbalik umah...rindu sgt2 nk balik umah..

Hmm..ptgnye sy pn kluar dgn keadaan yg tiba2 n tergesa2 n sgt2 thrill sbb at the time i went out it was already 530, and we are supposed to be back at 6pm..hahaha.bygkan la betapa lajunye smua benda terjadi time tu..memang pecut abes la kira nye wlaupun xberapa pecut pun sbb most of the time tersangkut dlm jam...akhirnye, we only managed to be at IMC at 630pm..haha. stengah jam lambat...habis la..habis la :P
Anyway, tq ye :) really enjoy the rush~

So,malam nye, apalagi tido awal la..hehe...ni yg terbangun di kala subuh pn belum menjelma kerana terlebih tido :P hehehe..

XOXO, Yesterday is a day...

Arini g PSR =psychosocial rehabilitation=program sillaturrahim...hehe :) best sgt..sronok dpt tgk pt2 kt situ...kitaorg (budak2 kk balok) dpt pt nama kak musalmah...best sgt..hehe..kitaorg tlg kakak tu,dia pilih gambar2 dpd paper then ktaorg tlg dia tulis apa2 la yg bkaitan ttg gmbr2 tu...sronok la :)
Hmm...dlm pd tu, dsbbkan pjalanan pegi balik lma gak la, so, spjg pjalanan tu, apalagi, kita pn tido+berangan+berangan lagi spjg pjalanan tu...hahaha...
Hmm...nape la kita suka berangan ni...hmmm...

spjg pjalanan tu, terasa la kesepian, kesunyian, kesorangan...
betapa kosongnya hdup ni, bila insan yg memahami diri ini tiada bersama...
Bila tiada rakan2 yg sama2 memahami diriku ini, tiada di sisi...
Betapa diri ini terlalu merindui ,masa2 yg telah berlalu...
betapa diri ini mengharapkan semua yg berlalu sblm ini, berulang kembali, menjadi kenyataan..
bukan nya sekadar khayalan mahupun kenangan silam, kenangan yg tak mampu diri ini lupakan...

Tp, there is this one song yg sgt2 bermakna yg kita nyanyi je spjg pjalanan tu..haha.mcm org gila nyanyi sorg2...haha..
Why this song..? coz it really shows what i really hope to have..what i really want in life...and at the same time, it really tells that a girl is just a girl, not a perfect person....
This is the song, TAKDIR CINTA, Rossa...

ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
ku yakin ada cinta
ketulusan hati yang mengulir lembut

Penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku
andaikan ku bisa lebih adil
pada cinta Kau dan dia
aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa

biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini
ada Kau dan dia bukan ku yang mahu
oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku

"dia=....." hahaha..my dear frenz ( u all know who U are,kan...) so, i think u all know sape 'dia' dlm lagu ni :P

XOXO, still dreaming, dont want to wake up yet...

Life & Love ~

It has been a while since i wrote anything on this blog.... Why...coz kita malas sgt2...sbb kita bz ( yeke bz...? hahaha) paling utama, sbb utama nye ialah...jeng,jeng,jeng....xtau nk ckp passal apa lg dh...haha...all the issues yg slama ni slalu kita tulis dh smakin subside...hahaha...dh jd less, and less important in my life...hahaha (ye ke makin 'less important'...?rasa ke'important'an nye kekal sama, malahan smakin bertambah...haha)
tp arini, i want to write in this blog, sbb, kita dh nampak sumting yg sgt2 special....
i saw what is love...real love...hmm..cinta sbnr, bukan skadar cinta yg bermain kat dpn mata...bukan skadar cinta yg bsandarkan pd kehendak hati, jiwa, nafsu semata2... i saw what is the real meaning of love....

How a guy really looks in a girl's eyes, and says " u are everything to me" without saying any word..
How a guy really smiles for a girl, how he really cares and how he really shows that she means the world to him....
How he really loves her, with all his heart, eventhough he does not say it out loud...
How he plans ahead for her, and includes her in everything in his life...
How he really wants her to be his, in the future, forever....

Ini memang a real love...bukan nye sekadar kisah dlm buku crita dongeng...bukan nye crita snow white or cinderella...bukan nye crita titanic pun...tp this is a real story...
and i hv the chance to see it live, in front of my eyes...
Mmg sgt2 sweet..
Mmg mcm fairy-tale,sweet sgt2...comel sgt....
I really2 hope, one day, i'll hv the chance to hv that kind of love...
For a guy to love me,whole-heartedly...
To be in his future, to be in his life, to share everything, anything....
But, to have such a great guy, with such a great love, i'll have to be a very good girl...which i really doubt, bolekah diri ini jadi a good girl...?? Hmmm.... That's a question for me to ponder...

XOXO, to be or not to be.....