arini best sgt :)

Best nye cuti ni..hihi..arini i spend most of my time with mama..yeay..seronok sgt2..kitaorg breakfast sama2, as usual, plus we talk, and talk, and tlak...mama byk bg nasihat..byk share penglaman hidup nye with me..lucky me :) that's why mama is my best fren :) then, after doing the house chores, kitaorg masak lunch sama2.hihi..seronok sgt2...disebabkan abah xdapat balik mkn lunch and baby ada rehearsal merentas desa (or merentas 'tasik',as what her teacher said,as we live in Taman Tasik Utama),so, it's another me+mama time..yahoo!!!best sgt2..

Then in the evening, i waited for baby, bila dia dh balik,mula la kecoh satu rumah as she keeps on teasing me and making jokes all the time dan membuatkan saya ketawa terbahak2,,hihi..

Bila abah dah balik kerja,dh dekat kul 7, abah ajak kua mkan..hehe.
ke mana..?

Umbai..nyumnyum..waktu tu gak my tummy dh menyanyi dah, mengenangkan kesedapan ikan bakar, sotong bakar and segala seafood yg bakar2 la ;) so, lpas solat mgrin, we headed to Umbai for our dinner..

Dinner kali ni mmg special, sbb, sedddddddddddaaaaaaaaappppp sgt2..Kenyang sgt..thanks a lot abah (sbb kita asyik duk mintak nak makan ikan bakar..so,abah pn bwk la anaknye yg agak mengada2 ni gi mkn kat sana, wlaupun last week, abah,mama and baby baru je makan kat situ..hehehe..taktik ku berjaya!!!)

So,lpas dinner,kami pn pulang...lalalalalala~ Bahagianye idup saya ni..alhamdullillah ;)

(Tp,still,ada sumting yg menganggu dlm hati ini..sumthing that i rather left behind..xpayah pk kan lgsg...huhu..mengapa perlu perasaan ini mencengkam jiwa~)

XOXO,Me, Happy nye duk umah,but still missing......

Cuti..yeay!!

best nye cuti kat umah..duk umah..tgk tv..main games kat fb..hihi..mcm xde pape nak wat je kan :P
tp smlm mmg best...gi shopping :) i like...mmg shopping habis2an la..hehehe ;) beli 2pairs of shoes (mmg i gila dgn kasut2 cantik ni..),beli bag yg sgt2 cantik plus beli edt kylie minogue showtime :D hehehe...best..sudah lama saya mencari, bru kini sy berjumpa dgn nye :) then, in the evening, we went to pasar mlm kat bukit beruang..tp stall yg jual ns krabu yg sdap tu tak bukak...so, abah ajak mkn kat tomyam klasik~ yeay!! best sgt restaurant ni..dh la cntik tmpst nye, mknn nye pn best...keeeeennyyyaaaaang sgt mkn :)
arini, xtau nak wat ape ni...dh wat breakfast mihun goreng pg td,for lunch, xdpt menu lg dpd mama, so, blum masuk dapur lg...hehe..ni yg curi masa menulis blog ni ;ptp, yg penting, arini ramai yg start wat forensic posting ~ i dh lepas dh, so skrg korg la pulak ye merasai perasaan mjd CSI, sgt best, sgt menarik..sila enjoy dgb beriya nye spjg posting forensic ni ye korg :D
Lastly, hmmm, no words cn express what i'm feeling these days..what feeling..hmm..no answer can be given..it's for u to guess ;P
Btw, tak sabar nye nak gi Langkawi sabtu ni..yeay!!! :D

XOXO, Me, cant wait any longer...

My Day..seronoknye..

Hari ni mmg sgt menarik..eventhough pg2 dah ada seminar dgn dr samsul, which started with mijah's presentation on headache, then continued with seminar on nicotine abuse..huhu...while in the class, saya ni tak dpt duk diam..hehe..only those sitting near to me dlm lect hall tu td+mucuk yg tau knp..haha..tp bila keputusan nye diketahui,barula bole sy focus :P

Tgahari nye, kua gi mkn lunch kat sekilau dgn Yuyu i love you, Kay, Len..mula2 ajat ati nak mkn kat Pak Akob..tp tutup..pastu ingat nk mkn ns kukus yg cedap tu..tp tutup gka..last2, sbb perut terlalu berkeroncong, mkn je kat stall tepi jalan tu..haha :P

Petang nye, anta Wnu tersayang gi mandi-manda..Wnu dh bersih dh..hihi..i love u Wnu :D

Lpas tu, after dh solat n siap2, apalagi...sy pn mjalankan aktvt sy..pegi tgk interkulliyah nye games..best sgt2 tgk volley final...team medic mmg sgt2 handal...mmg kagum la tgk..rasa cm nak melompat aje tgk diaorg main td..hihi :D n of course, mereka menang.. Congratz!!! :D

Then, pegi lak tgk bsketball sisters..final gak..mmg sgt2 sengit...Medic vs Nursing... Hmm..ganas sgt3 budak2 nursing tu main...macam tgk rugby+gusti/tinju+segala aksi keganasan yg ada (adik2 jgn tiru aksi2 ini di rumah..berbahaya...) jgn sangka nurses yg sopan santun itu takkan mengganas...hahaha :P mmg penuh keseraman dan kegeraman tgk diaorg berkasar dgn kwn2 kita..mana bole main kasar..huhu..tp at last, our team yg menang..tahniah korg...U all deserve to win :D

Ok...game basket tu abes around 740..haha..pulang ke bilik dh lewat magrib dah..ish.ish.ish..
Lepas meng'deal'kan dgn kwn2 posting lepas (which i was very glad that mereka semua sgt2 co-operative..sanggup je agree even with such a short notice, iaitu less than an hour..hihi), we decided to go and have dinner together gak..
(more like mcm ugutan aje..hihi..sbb lama dh tak jumpa mereka n borak2 bersama2..walaupun 2org tak dpt turut serta, tp still, i want to go out with them gak..by hook or by crook)
So, at 9 pm, we went to secret recipe and get together..makan2..borak2..usik2..sakat2..gelak2..hehe..but i wish that we have more time..rasa sangat2 sekejap kuar dgn korg...miss our moments together in 3rd year..miss those time when we were together~ Korang..thank you sgt2 kua makan td..best sgt2..
wlaupn ada yg dh sgt2 lapar...sgt2 penat..tp sanggup jugak kuar makan2 dgn ktaorg...sgup gak tunggu ktaorg ni..thanks a lot ye..sgt2 appreciate it :D
So, apabila saya pulang, saya pn mula la merasakan, betapa bahagianya idup saya ni..
Syukur alhamdulillah :)
I'm realy2 grateful for He has given me a very meaningful and beautiful life :)

XOXO, me happy,very2 happy :)

A day, another busy day...

Arini sgt memenatkan, tp best :)
Pg td, ktaorg smua g KK Beserah..pg2 ada briefing pasal school health program, then, kitaorg smua mengubahkan bilik seminar kt ctu mjadi operation room C2 dlm ktaorg mengejar masa utk siap kan proposal presentation utk esk~ huhu..smua org sgt2 tekun n bsungguh2...I like :)
Then, at 3pm, kitaorg ada briefing ttg methadone program and hiv programs yg ada kt kuantan ni..then, balik uia..smpai imc at 450pm...then,kita, aj, wan kd and zarol, pi HTAA utk lawat makcik Robiah, pt kt KK Balok yg ktaorg wat homevisit...bila ktaorg smp je kt ctu, tpancar kegembiraan kt wajah mkcik tu...seriously, this is really2 wat kan sy sgt terharu..eventhough we just cameto visit her for a while, tak sangka doing sumting, as simple as coming to the ward, cn bring a smile to her face :) masa2 cmni la yg mbuatkan kita rasa bahagia memilih bidang ni :) really~ Thanks a lot to AJ, Wan KD and Zarol coz sgt2 baik, sgup pi lawat makcik tu dgn kita wlaupn msg2 kpenatan..korg mmg rock!!! :)
anyway, ni tgh kat meeting rum level 3 KOM, smua tgh berusaha wat part masing2 utk presentation proposal esk pg..chiayok2 smua...go,go C2!!!
P/S- harapan utk 'mkn sdap' tpaksa di-surpress-kan buat smentara waktu,coz sy bz and .......... No possible time for now, even weekend pn takbole gak...sob,sob ;(

XOXO, Me still busily waiting~

Past and Present...

I was a bit surprised when suddenly 'the dark side of my past' comes back haunting me, today..
Hmmm..why..? i really feel that it is disturbing...
I dont want to hv anything to do with 'that past' of my life.. It was a mistake, a foolish mistake, a dark dot in my blessful life...sometimes i regret for having that part of my life...tapi takpe la..life moves on, and so am i...dan saya sgt2 berani mengatakan, saya sgt bahagia skrg.... and i really dont want to hv anything to do with 'it' anymore...

The past was a foolish mistake..
A dark side of my younger years...
A part of my life that i really regret...
The part that i dont want to remember, dont want to know or even to hear anything about it anymore..
The part that i wish that i can delete forever in my life...
The part that really hurts, that had broken my heart into pieces....
Why should it come back to me after several years..after im happy with my present life..?
When im sure of myself, when i'm once again my true self...
I just want to tell 'that dark side of the past"...
It's all over..It's a history and it means nothing for me...
Coz now, im sure of my present...and i really hope to be my future..
My present life is such a bliss...
And I thank Allah for that..
For giving me this present of life.................
A gift that is priceless..one which i'll treasure for the rest of my life...
One that i hope will always be mine, till the end...

On request..shoudl i write about "gossip girl"...?hmmm~

Ada la seorg tu...dia suruh kita tulis pasal myself as a gossip girl..
Hmm, am i really a gossiper...?i dont think so...coz i know i cn keep others' secrets :) hahaha..
Tp kdg2 tu, trasa gak mcm gossip girl, sbb bk jugak la benda yg kita tau...hahaha :P
mestila sbb sy ada sumber yg sgt best ;) hehe..
tq la di atas 'perkongsian' itu...
wlaupun skadar berkongsi gossip, at least ada gk la benda yg di'share'kan...hahaha :P

Anyway, disebabkan permintaan (eceh,eceh..perasan la tu..xde la permintaan sgt pn...skadar percakapn je rasanye td tu...), this is what i cn write, as a gossip girl, who has been all the way along what u two have been going...to the both 'he' and 'she', this is for u :)

Other people may say that ur life are far apart...Two different worlds collide with another...
So very different from each other...
But the differences have been keeping U both together up until now...
Other peope might have said, U both are not suitable for each other..
But, what really suits the both of U, it's up for U both to decide....
Some people might say U are better than her, while others might say U deserve better than him...
But, really, it doesnt matter at all...coz they dont know both of U,
as much as U know her...as much as U care for him...
as much as she knows U...as much as he cares about U....

Mcari satu persamaan dlm seribu perbezaan...
Mcari ketenangan dlm kegelisahan...
Mcari kebahagiaan dlm kesamaran..
Mgkn tak mampu dinilai dgn cuma kata2...
Kerana mainan perasaan, adalah suatu yg tak pasti...
Mungkn dgn keyakinan hati, serta diiringi ikhlasnya doa drpd jiwa yg suci....
Sebuah mimpi bakal menjadi suatu realiti........

(U both = korang berdua la... U = him, U = her)
So, kpd korang berdua, I wish both of U, all the best tau...I'm always on Ur side...hahaha :P
P/s : sori la kalu tersinggung membaca post ni...this is what i really to tell to both of U

XOXO, still here alone but not lonely..

A day full of .....

This is about yesterday...smlm mmg la tsgt penatnye...disebabkan cwu tak siap,seminar pun xprepare, i didnt get enough sleep pn,cuma sempat tido kul430 smp 630..haha..dh la time tido tu mimpinye horror...mmg xnyenyak tido nye...so, esok nye tu, iaitu semalam pg, seminar pn dipresentkan dgn ntah ape2 je la...byk yg kita tak tulis, so, membebel la sorg2 kt depan tu..haha..kesian kat mrk2 yg mdgr..

Then, i tried to print out my cwu kat library,tp, malangnye, disebabkan matrc card xbwk,jdnye, xbole la nk print...waaaaa..stress btul..time tu dh pk mcm2, kt mana nk cr tmpt print lain,sbb library tutup kul12..seminar ktaorg start kul 1030 smp dkat2 pkul 1..huhu..tp, luckily, wan kd ada mjadi my heroin for that day,...kita print je pd wan kd...n she xnak kita bayar pape pn...baiknye ati wan kd..thanks byk2 ye wan kd :)

Then, ptd smlm ada islamic input..lpas je abis islamic input yg agak2 lama n xfaham sgt tu, maka sy pn pulg ke bilik dan apalagi, call mama n bergossip...haha...setengah jam tu duk berborak dgn mama...best sgt2..dh la dh lama xbalik umah...rindu sgt2 nk balik umah..

Hmm..ptgnye sy pn kluar dgn keadaan yg tiba2 n tergesa2 n sgt2 thrill sbb at the time i went out it was already 530, and we are supposed to be back at 6pm..hahaha.bygkan la betapa lajunye smua benda terjadi time tu..memang pecut abes la kira nye wlaupun xberapa pecut pun sbb most of the time tersangkut dlm jam...akhirnye, we only managed to be at IMC at 630pm..haha. stengah jam lambat...habis la..habis la :P
Anyway, tq ye :) really enjoy the rush~

So,malam nye, apalagi tido awal la..hehe...ni yg terbangun di kala subuh pn belum menjelma kerana terlebih tido :P hehehe..

XOXO, Yesterday is a day...

Arini g PSR =psychosocial rehabilitation=program sillaturrahim...hehe :) best sgt..sronok dpt tgk pt2 kt situ...kitaorg (budak2 kk balok) dpt pt nama kak musalmah...best sgt..hehe..kitaorg tlg kakak tu,dia pilih gambar2 dpd paper then ktaorg tlg dia tulis apa2 la yg bkaitan ttg gmbr2 tu...sronok la :)
Hmm...dlm pd tu, dsbbkan pjalanan pegi balik lma gak la, so, spjg pjalanan tu, apalagi, kita pn tido+berangan+berangan lagi spjg pjalanan tu...hahaha...
Hmm...nape la kita suka berangan ni...hmmm...

spjg pjalanan tu, terasa la kesepian, kesunyian, kesorangan...
betapa kosongnya hdup ni, bila insan yg memahami diri ini tiada bersama...
Bila tiada rakan2 yg sama2 memahami diriku ini, tiada di sisi...
Betapa diri ini terlalu merindui ,masa2 yg telah berlalu...
betapa diri ini mengharapkan semua yg berlalu sblm ini, berulang kembali, menjadi kenyataan..
bukan nya sekadar khayalan mahupun kenangan silam, kenangan yg tak mampu diri ini lupakan...

Tp, there is this one song yg sgt2 bermakna yg kita nyanyi je spjg pjalanan tu..haha.mcm org gila nyanyi sorg2...haha..
Why this song..? coz it really shows what i really hope to have..what i really want in life...and at the same time, it really tells that a girl is just a girl, not a perfect person....
This is the song, TAKDIR CINTA, Rossa...

ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
ku yakin ada cinta
ketulusan hati yang mengulir lembut

Penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku
andaikan ku bisa lebih adil
pada cinta Kau dan dia
aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa

biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini
ada Kau dan dia bukan ku yang mahu
oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku

"dia=....." hahaha..my dear frenz ( u all know who U are,kan...) so, i think u all know sape 'dia' dlm lagu ni :P

XOXO, still dreaming, dont want to wake up yet...

Life & Love ~

It has been a while since i wrote anything on this blog.... Why...coz kita malas sgt2...sbb kita bz ( yeke bz...? hahaha) paling utama, sbb utama nye ialah...jeng,jeng,jeng....xtau nk ckp passal apa lg dh...haha...all the issues yg slama ni slalu kita tulis dh smakin subside...hahaha...dh jd less, and less important in my life...hahaha (ye ke makin 'less important'...?rasa ke'important'an nye kekal sama, malahan smakin bertambah...haha)
tp arini, i want to write in this blog, sbb, kita dh nampak sumting yg sgt2 special....
i saw what is love...real love...hmm..cinta sbnr, bukan skadar cinta yg bermain kat dpn mata...bukan skadar cinta yg bsandarkan pd kehendak hati, jiwa, nafsu semata2... i saw what is the real meaning of love....

How a guy really looks in a girl's eyes, and says " u are everything to me" without saying any word..
How a guy really smiles for a girl, how he really cares and how he really shows that she means the world to him....
How he really loves her, with all his heart, eventhough he does not say it out loud...
How he plans ahead for her, and includes her in everything in his life...
How he really wants her to be his, in the future, forever....

Ini memang a real love...bukan nye sekadar kisah dlm buku crita dongeng...bukan nye crita snow white or cinderella...bukan nye crita titanic pun...tp this is a real story...
and i hv the chance to see it live, in front of my eyes...
Mmg sgt2 sweet..
Mmg mcm fairy-tale,sweet sgt2...comel sgt....
I really2 hope, one day, i'll hv the chance to hv that kind of love...
For a guy to love me,whole-heartedly...
To be in his future, to be in his life, to share everything, anything....
But, to have such a great guy, with such a great love, i'll have to be a very good girl...which i really doubt, bolekah diri ini jadi a good girl...?? Hmmm.... That's a question for me to ponder...

XOXO, to be or not to be.....

Miss them sooooooooooo much...

Dah lama sgt kita tak tulis blog ni...huhu..bz kot..
Tp i want to write arini sbb nak simpan kngan ni...
Pg td, ari raya yg ke 4, sgt bermakna bgku...
Kitaorg one family pergi ke muar...cari smula abg kpd arwah atok, yg lama dh lost contact...
dh btahun kitaorg tak pegi umah tok jamali tu...

• Arwah atuk and arwah nenek dh takde, so, kitaorg slalunye balik raya stakat sehari saja memandangkan kitaorg mcm dh xde kg la...
• Abah dh hilang sim card yg lama so smua contact number sedara mara yg mmg disimpan dlm tu, ilang bsama2...
• kesempatan takde...kitaorg msg2 bz...nak balik mlaka pn susah, apatah lagi nk ke muar...
• Tp, sbb skrg kitaorg dh bpindah dpd serdang ke melaka, jd, kitaorg berusaha sedaya upaya menjejak sedara mara yg dh lama xjumpa...

so, today is a very memorable day...kitaorg smpai kat umah tok jamali...alhamdulillah, tok jamali masih sihat, wlaupun dh smakin tua,sgt berbeza dgn the last time that i saw him, about 14years ago...tp, apa yg sgt terkesan di hati ini ialah, how much tok jamali resembles arwah atok... Smuanye sama...rupa dia,gaya dia, senyuman dia, cara cakapnye...semua nye sgt sama...and benda2 ni membuatkan sy sgt2 sedih...

bcoz, i miss atok and i miss nenek sooooooooo much...i miss them sooo much...kehidupan tanpa mereka mmg byk beza nye...i wonder how it would be if they are stiill around...tp saya tau, Allah lebih menyayangi atok dan nenek....

Td pun, i almost cried when kitaorg dh bergerak pulang dpd umah tok jamali... apa yg saya fikirkan waktu tu, was that, will i ever hv the chance to meet tok jamali again..coz tok jamali lah saudara terdekat yg masih ada yg berhubung rapat dgn arwah atok...

And at that time, baru la kita perasan betapa cepat masa beredar...dah 7tahun atok pergi meninggalkan kami...dah 6tahun nenek pergi meninggalkan kami...betapa aku terlupa, betapa cepatnye masa berlalu...rasanye baru semalam atok berkata padaku "ni yg buat atok lagi sayang ni..." tatkala aku mengambil kan segelas air buatnya waktu atok sdg berkebun.... rasanye baru semalam aku nenek memanggilku, "ayu, ayu...meh sini nak..." ketika aku baru pulang dpd sekolah.,...

Ya Allah, tempatkanlah arwah atok ku, Abdul Rahim b. Pa'ee dan arwah nenek ku, Patimah bt. Salleh di samping org2 yg beriman, Kau ampunilah dosa mereka, Kau cucuri lah rahmatMu buat mereka... Al-Fatihah~

P/s : i miss them so much...

Hari yg semacam...

1.arini dh ari ke-3 dermato...baru jumpa dgn dr anis...td baru la dpt skit 'cahaya' ttg kehidupan dlm posting dremato ni...hmmm.mcm best bila ada doctor mengajar...mcm tak best bila xde sape yg hiraukan aka terbiar tanpa bimbingan aka berdiri je tercongok kat clinic dermato tu tanpa hala tuju...tp mcm syok jugak la...maybe sbb dr anis pandai bcakap, mbuatkan kita rasa nk jd rajin ckit utk blaja dermato ni :)

2.rasa2nye mcm nak gi shopping lg la ptg ni...weekend ni dh puasa..n my geng utk bershopping sgt bz kat kg pdg tu...so, tpaksa surpress keinginan tu shingga abis puasa nnt
;( sob,sob~ maybe shingga abis raya,coz raya nnt mst bz nak beraya sakan!!!

3.i heard sumting td..sumone told me sumting...xtau nak percaya apa...coz slama ni, i believe in sumting else...tp tadi, kita tahu sumting...and i dont know how to respond...hmmm...situaisi nye begini...apa anda rasa, jika, anda ingatkan kreta yg anda sygkan slama ni adalah kreta yg best sgt2...tp rupa2nye, kreta tu, kreta 2nd hand...? ( btul ke analogy sy ni...mcm pelik aje bunyik nye....)
btw, ni xde kaitan lgsg dgn WNU ksygn saya tu...WNU, i love u :D

So, what should i expect?hmmm...surprisingly, i should not expect anything at all!!!!
XOXO, Me, Confused...........

does smile=health?

Arini terasa sgt kesorangan...huhu..ntah nape ntah...
sunyi sgt...

td masa baru balik ptg td, sumone tegur and said " wada nape nampak xsihat?" and out of nowhere, kita memarahi that girl,by saying that she made her own assumption....she tried to defend herself and she said, 'wada smakin kurang senyum..."
hmmmm, does xsmile = xsihat...? or does smile=healthy...? i was puzzled...still am..
ntah la...i'm sorry coz kita jawab dgn penuh kekasaran td, but, really, i was not in a mood to chit-chat about how do i look today......
kesian sgt to that girl, kita tau yg dia try to be friendly, to be a concerned fren, to tell that she cares...tp, im sorry, maybe its the way u said those words...maybe the timing is not right...but, most probably, maybe it's just me.......
ntah la...lately, i'm becoming soooooooooooooooooo moody...
nape pn tak tau la...
maybe i hv to go back to see mama,abah n adik2, to recharge my happiness level back to normal...
so that i'll smile more frequently...so that, no one will say that kita ni xsihat.....
anyway, i'm looking forward utk pulang ke rumah weekend ni...nak gi hari peladang (as what hs been suggested by Mama, then pegi maen bowling...best nye..best nye )...
but somehow, i hv to write down what i feel...............

i dont understand what i really feel...
but this feeling just cant go away...
it's hurting me so much..
every second of my time..
i cant take it anymore.......

(but i think, the main reason is that, i miss those smiles, i miss those laughs, i miss those jokes, i miss those time that we spent together...i really hope to have those moments back...so that i cn once again be happy, so that i can once again smile and laugh wholeheartedly, so that i will be my 'old' self back.....)

XOXO, Me, dont know why...

Weekend yg bz berjalan2 :)

Bahagia nye ada kawan2 yg sgt2 baik ni...they hv brightened up my life :)
Now i can smile once again :)
I can already accept that even though sy 'terpisah', mereka tetap ada di sisi utk diri ini..
Thanks a lot...cyg korg semua :)
It's not that i dont hv other frenz, i do, and i do love them too, but, sbb dah terbiasa bersama all the 5 of them ( u know who u r) ,sy terbawa2 rasa kesunyian,kesorangan ni...tp xpe, now i'm already my old self back :)

hehe :) my weekend ends with a smile on my face...
ari jumaat petang, lpas tido dgn penuh kebahagiaan spjg ptg tu, kuar g anta kwn g klinik...cian dia...kna kuarantin smpai skrg...she is still hving low grade fever...plz pray for her, hopefully that she'll recover asap, insya-Allah :)
then, malam tu, kuar gi makan kat santai dgn nad,azi, us...sedap sgt mkan lasagna kat ctu...nyum nyum :)
esoknye, pagi tu temankan hana n ehem2nye gi megamall...plan asal she asked me to temankan dia beli headphone, then plan berubah, terpaksa la kita join je mereka berdua..haha :) sy menyibuk je dlm mereka berdua memilih2 headphone tu :) ala2 chaperone gitu ~

then ptg tu, kuar dgn mucuk (jetul) g ber-ronggeng...syok sgt!!!! hihihi :)

then pg td, dikejutkan oleh cik jetul, dpt mkn nasi lemak ma jetul yg best sgt2...sedap~ i like :) tq mucuk :)

my evening, masa utk bershopping!!! kuar dgn us and nad...mula2 kitaorg gi ecm, mkn kat kfc, then jalan2...then temankan diaorg cr brg2 utk ke sg lembing...hehe :) best sgt dpt jalan2 :)

This week, mereka ( jetul, nad, us,azi,.....) akan ke sg lembing ...i bet i'll miss them all so much...uhu :(

but, i've promised to myself, that i'll study hard sepanjang ketiadaan mereka ni....

then bila mereka pulang, i can enjoy once again with them..yahoo!! :)

XOXO, Me, happy..

Lamakah lagi ....?

Tak larat...seriously, dah tak larat...
cmne nak hadapi hidup slama setahun ni..
cmne nak harungi semua ini, sendirian...keseorangan...
tak sanggup lg idup penuh kesunyian mcm ni ...
tak sanggup lg idup penuh kekosongan begini......
bayangkan, takde teman berbual...takde kawan nak berkongsi masalah ataupun nak bergelak ketawa mcm slalu....
ntah la...ntah la...


Cmne saya nk blaja kalu saya tak de smgt lgsg..takde perasaan lgsg...
Cmne saya nak blaja kalu hati ini kian memberontak...makin memberontak setiap detik..setiap saat...
Tak larat...tak sanggup... tak kuasa...
Ya Allah.. Ya Allah.. Ya Allah...
Berikan diri ini kekuatan...
Kerana aku dah tak sanggup lg mengharungi segala ini...
Kerana diri ini mmg lemah, tak kuat utk menempuhi segala ini....

XOXO, Me, I cant bear it anymore ~

Memetik kata2 seseorang, idup mesti diteruskan :)

Setelah menjalani weekend yg penuh aktiviti bershopping :

• Jumaat - Gi parkson + megamall beli handbag,2 baju for baby and rahsier~
  
• Sabtu- Pagi2 dh gi picnic kat TC... Then,gi KP, beli girlie things, blouses and shawl~
• Ahad- Hari dimulakan dgn gi pasar tani utk beli food for breakfast...pastu,gi makan2 kat tempat yg dikatakan sgt sedap, tp rasa nye, cm biasa je...nasib baik la ada org ngaku ygb mknn aritu cm biasa je..hehehe :) tp syok la, coz dpt jalan2, mkn kropok lekor yg sgt sedap and duk di tepi pantai, makan cempedak goreng and minum air kelapa...

Tapi arini, 3rd of August 2009, mula lah episod pertama dalam diri ini menjalani ari2 sebagai 4th year medical student...

• Kita start dg posting radiology...pagi2 ada briefing dgn Prof. Arif about specialized posting...then, gi HTAA, ada briefing lg about our radiology posting..huhu...then, Dr.kamariah ckp, ada pre-test..hadoi la~ dalam keadaan diri ini yg blank n tak tau pape ni, maka sy pn main hentam sajalah soalan2 itu...
• Then, we hv to go to sumthing like seminar, tajuk 'kursus keselamatan radiasi'...huhu...sgt mengantok...bayang kan...1st day in the posting n u hv to attend that talk...xpaham apa pn..huhu..full of technical terms...at last, after lunch, kitaorg cabut, pegi ke JHC
• Then, at 4pm, ada kelas lagi..huhu..

Penat sungguh...memang sgt2 penat...
Tp, xpelah...
I have to be strong...
I have to face all these...
Even though i'm alone...

Sedihnye...sedih sgt2...
Sunyi sgt...
xde lagi gelak2 cam dulu...
xde lagi jokes cam dulu...
xde lagi spending hours just for eating lunch kat tempat yg syok (pak akob's)
xde lagi usik mengusik...gossip menggosip...

Yg paling saya rindu kan...kawan seposting yg lepas... Jetul,Nad,Azi,Us...My motivator...

But, quoting from someone, hidup mesti diteruskan...
Yup, U're right...
Hidup mesti diterus kan :)

XOXO, Me, Alone and Lonely