till this point of time

Sampai ke saat ini..
Saya dh pasrah dan berserah..
Dah malas nk pikir pasal pape..
Nak kena marah..marahlah..saya pasrah..
Nak kena maki hamun..makilah..hamunlah..
Saya pasrah..

Dan yg plg utama,
I have come to the point of accepting that i'll be forever alone..
Haha..
Sampai umur setua aku ni pn masih xbertemu cinta sejati..
Jadi, terpaksa la terima yg forever alone tu ialah satu kebarangkalian dlm hidup ku..

Bila pikir semula..
Ramai sgt HO yg cantik2 dan still single..
So..kalau mereka yg cantik ni pn.still xjumpa the right one..
Aku...?
Haha..mmg harapan tinggal harapan la kan...

Ntahla..
Rasa sia2 bg hati pd org..
Seriously rasa diri xberguna..

Hmmmm.
My posts are so depressing kan..?
I know..i know..
Tp..
Apa yg saya bole buat..?

I am losing it..in either way..
Apa lagi yg tgal utk diriku..?
Xde pape..

People kept on saying that i look sad..
Though i smile all the way..

When they start to ask, "stress dgn kerja"..
Thats all i can lie to them..
Apalgi yg bole dikata..?
Ntahla..
I dont know..
Does it really show..?
Entahla..

Bila rasa dlm hati semakin tawar..
Apalagi yg mampu aku lakukan..?

Aku mmg bsyukur yg my family n frens are always here for me....kalau x,mst lagi parah..

Ntah la..
Apa la dikenang pd org yg xsudi..
Sepatutnya aku cuba melupakan..
Tp..
Sampai skrg..
Semua nye duk teringat...
Plus..
The question of, "what if..."

Stupid me..

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2 months..baru 2 bulan..?? rasa macam dh 2 tahun!!

I used to b stronger..
Much stronger than this..
I used to be able to go thru my days without worrying of anything that might go wrong..
But nowadays..?
Each n every second of my life seems to be in doom..
What should i do..?
I cant even have a decent off day or annual leave days.. Coz the phone will ring and all the problems would just come and keep on coming..
I dont hv my freedom anymore..
What should i do..?
I dont want to live like this..
4 months is too much for me to bear..
I just cant take all these anymore!!!!!!!

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2 bulan

Arini  dh genap 2 bulan keja dlm department yg the horror of them all..
Ari2 dimarah dan ditengking herdik maki hamun

Another 2 months to go..
Haisyh

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tak patut!

Sgt tak bersetuju pd satu gambar perbandingan yg ditunjukkan oleh satu syarikat mknn kesihatan yg glemer kt msia ni..
Sgt tidak setuju!!
Mana bole dibandingkan?
Mmg kedua2nye insan istimewa..
Tp bukan la pilihan yg dikiri itu utk mengemis...
Mungkin pjalanan hidup insan di kanan itu lebih mudah, lebih senang dan dipermudahkan Illahi..
Sedangkan yg di kiri itu hidup nya terlalu sempit yg menghimpit..

Mana ada sesiapa yg ingin hidup mengemis..?

Mmg la syarikat herb@l!f3 tu nk tunjuk yg insan OKU pn bole berjaya dlm mengedarkan produk itu..
Tp mereka tak seharusnye membandingkan kedua2 nye..
Adalah lebih baik jika mereka hanya mnunjukkan gmbar insan oku pengedar herb@l!f3 itu tanpa membandingkan dgn insan oku di sebelah kiri tu..

Kerana perjalanan hidup mereka berbeza..
Pernahkah mereka tanya insan oku di kiri tu adakah dia memilih utk mengemis...?
Pasti jwapan nye TIDAK..

Ketahuilah,tiada siapa yg mahu hidup meminta2, menagih simpati insan lain..
Tiada siapa yg mahu mengemis..
Dan mengemis itu bukan la satu pilihan..
Dia mungkin sangat terdesak dlm kehidupan yg serba kekurangan yg kian mengasak di kala dunia makin moden dan manusia semakin hanyut dalam dunia ke-aku-an...

Tolonglah fikir sedalam nye sebelum buat caption itu..

Saya sgt sedih membaca caption tu..
Terasa di hati..
Bayangkan jika gambar tu dilihat oleh insan oku di sebelah kiri..?

Betapa hidup nye yg serba kekurangan dijadikan modal utk melakukan produk jualan syarikat tersebut...

Maaf la jika ada yg terasa...
Saya cuma berkata dpd hati saya yg sekecil hama ini.....
Cuma meluahkan apa yg terlintas di fikiran insan yg tak punya apa2 ini...

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Years are wasted..
Throw away all those memories that i've kept all this while..
I am no one to him..
No one..
I dont even been consdered as his friend..

Lonely journey alone throughout these days and nights..

Mungkin aku tak sepatutnye pernah menyimpan rasa..
Atau mungkin sebenarnya cinta mmg takkan pernah aku miliki..
Mungkin,aku tak selayaknya dicintai sesiapa..

No one knows how it really break my heart..into millions of pieces..

Bila sendirian, tiada apa lg yg mampu ku lakukan..air mata turun sederas hujan lebat di musim tengkujuh..

Tak pernah ku pinta apa2..tak pernah..

Cuma tlg jgn sakiti hatiku..
Kita tau kita tak layak utk org sehebat itu..
Siapalah kita kan..?
Rupa xde..pangkat xde..harta lagi la tiada..

Tp..
Kita ada hati jugak walau pun saya serba tiada..
Dan tak sepatutnye selepas ditaburkan semua harapan pd kita, kemudian terus diamkan semuanye...

Langsung xde pape penjelasan..
Kenapa..?

Am i that hina to u..?
Though i am not the perfect girl for u, u cant do like this to me..

Do u know how it hurts..?
Tak tau kan..
Yelah..a guy like u,can always hae any girl that u want..
But that doesnt give u the right to treat me like u do...

Sbb kta bukan sesiapa..
Macam tu ke..?
Coz i am nobody so u can use me as u please..right?

No one know how i feel right now..

It hurts even to breathe..
It even hurts to do my work coz every little thing that i do reminds me of u..
I cant even drive as the car reminds me of u..
Everything reminds me of u..
So silly of me..
Being stupidly in love withthe guy who has never ever care or even bother about me...

Stupid me..
Stupid silly fool of me..

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post nite off yg happy :)

Arini saya off day post nite..
But i am all smile throughout the day..
Alhamdulillah..
Dapat balik umah on time..
Pukul 10.01am saya dpt punch out..hehe..rezeki dpt balik awal..
Then terus call mama..ajak kuar jalan2..memandangkan mata xngantok..
So me,mama n little princess gi ke tesco..
Mula ingat nk kuar makan je..tp..dah sampai sana..
Of course la kami ter-shopping..
Mama dpt beli 2blouses..
Me. .? I buy a skirt..yeay!!
Baby beli 2 helai tudung yg sungguh bright colour nye..haha..
Then we makan lunch at restoran nasi kandar kt situ..harga nye lebih murah berbanding kedai "si molek"..haha
Then..kami pn pulang..
Petang nye..
I went out dating dgn mijah cyg..
Dah lama xdating ngan mijah..sejak saya masuk surgery lg..
And today..we had a lot of fun..
Ber-karok dgn jayanye..
Makan2..
Cerita dan bergelak ketawa dgn gumbira nya..

Then mijah send me home..

Maka saya rasa happy sgt sbb arini post nite yg sgt menggembirakan..

So saya bole la tido dgn bahagia nye ;)
Yeay!!

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Beautiful Life..

Tetiba teringat kat crita beautiful life yg tayang kat tv masa zaman skola dulu..x ingat la masa tu tingkatan brapa..around form 2-3 kot :p
Lakonan Takuya Kimura yg ensem lg macho!!
Tetiba teringat lagu nye yg sgt bersemangat..
Terus google n download..
Dan dgn kemudahan teknologi zaman kini..
Cari gak lyrick lagu nye plus translation in english..
Haha..

So di bawah inilah satu2nye lagu jepun yg saya suka :) yeay!!

Song Name:  Konya Tsuki no Mieru oka ni  
Artiste(s):  B'z  
Drama Title:  Beautiful life
 
 
tatoeba dou ni kashite kimi no naka aa haitte itte
sono me kara boku o nozoitara ironna koto chotto wa wakaru kamo

aisureba aisuruhodo kiri no naka mayoikonde

te o tsunaidara ittemiyou
moeru you na tsuki no kagayaku oka ni
mukae ni yuku kara soko ni ite yo
kakera demo ii
kimi no kimochi shiru made konya boku wa nenai yo

itai koto kimochi ii koto sore wa minna hito sorezore de
chotto shita chigai ni tsumazuite mata shitemo boku wa hade ni koronda

kizutsuite yatto wakaru soredemo ii osoku wa nai

te o tsunaidara ittemiyou
ayashii hoshi no hisomu oka ni
shigemi no oku e to susundeyukou
kegashitemo ii
hajikeru you na egao no mukougawa o mitai yo

te o tsunaidara ittemiyou
mammarui tsuki no kagayaku oka ni
daremo ga minna terashidasarete
kokoro no moyou ga sora ni utsutteru
itsudemo sou yatte warattenaide
kakera demo ii
kimi no kimochi shiru made
konya wa issho ni itai yo

Translate in English

Tonight, On A Hill Where We Can See The Moon

If I were somehow
Able to get inside you
And peek at myself from your eyes
I might be able to understand a few things

The more I love you, the more I get lost in the mist

Let's go there, holding hands
To a hill where the moon shines as if it's burning
I'll come back for you, so just wait there
I won't sleep tonight
Until I understand how you feel, even if it's just fragment

What hurts and what feels good
Is different from person to person
I stumble on a small difference
And again I've taken a huge fall

In hurting you I finally understand, but it's all right, it's not too late

Let's go there, holding hands
To a hill where the strange stars lie
Let's go into the thicket
It doesn't matter if we get hurt
I want to see the other side of that open smile

Let's go there, holding hands
To a hill where the full moon shines
It illuminates everyone
And the designs of our hearts are reflected in the sky
Don't just laugh like always
I want to stay here with you tonight
Until I understand how you feel, even if it's just fragment

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