Kebahagiaan:)

I'm at home...wah, bahagia nye dapat duk umah..seronok sgt :) mmg full dgn program la...tp the main agenda is.... SHOPPING :p
ok...lets start from bertolaknye saya dpd kuantan...this is in chronological order :

1. Ptg kamis, kul 5.25pm, sy bertolak dpd IMC...setelah meminta tlg sumone ( jetul jgn gossip kita ok), that sumone pn dgn baik atinye menghantar kita ke terminal...nasib baik sampai on-time, kul 5.55pm...my bus is on 6.00pm...jd nye, sempat la.. Btw, thanks sgt to the one yg antar kan kita ke terminal ptg tu :)

2. Sampai umah around 10.30pm coz that bus lalu jlan yg dh dkat with my house..abah dh tunggu dh kat tepi jalan tu....

3. Then berborak+bcerita+bgelak ketawa dgn mama smpai kul 3.30am... huhu..cian mama tpaksa tido lewat, tp best sgt dpt bcerita mcm2 pd mama...thanks a lot mama :)

4. So on friday, after wat keja umah apa yg patut+ tgk tv, sejurus slps abah balik umah, saya dgn baik ati nye berkata dgn penuh kecomelan," Abah,jom kuar pasni...kita pegi shopping ya..?" Disebabkan abah baik ati serta tak mahu melihat anak ny ini kecewa, walaupun abah penat keja seharian, abah tetap menurut aje kehendak ati anaknye ini...hehe :) thanks a lot abah :)

5. So off we go....first, we went to buy me a few blouses..pegi to a few shops..hehe :) penat mama ngan adik2 tlg kita mencari blouses that like...at last, i bought 3 blouses...itupun after mama dh tunjukkan around a hundred blouses to me...sowi..ayu ni mmg leceh nak wat pilihn...

6. Then, i want a new pair of shoe...we went to jusco lak....stela berjalan2,i found the oe that i want...cantik sgt..hehe :) sy pn membeli nye, tanpa menghiraukan harga yg terpamer di tag nye... ( al-maklum la, scholar dh masuk, maka i dont boher much upon the price...mmg tak berwaspada...)

7.Then, i bought my mama a pair of bonia shoes yg she likes so much...hehe :) seronok rasanye dpt belikan sumthing for her....

8. Baby pn nak cari kasut baru...so, we went for a new quest, to find baby shoes that she likes and fits her....after a while, we succeeded :)

9. Then we went to dinner to a place yg mama nak pegi...hehe :) nyum nyum... slepas semua kenyang, we went back home for zZZzzzzZZZZ :)


That's basically what happen on kamis and yesterday...so what's the plan for today?

• Waiting for adik to come back from UIA gombak...she will be send by Zharif, my future bro-in-law, insya Allah...hehe :) lucky her to hv sumone to send her back home..
• Then, we will all went to lunch outside,i'm thinking of going to malim ikan bakar..sedapnye...
• Slepas zharif balik,we are going to do what i love the most;SHOPPING~ tak sabarnye..

So, that's the plan for now...ok..i've to go mama dh pnggil suruh makan breakfast kat bawah...as prepared by Ija...Ija mmg anak yg baik....pagi2 dh bgn wat breakfast, not like me yg bgn pg n went staight to the laptop n writing my blog.hhehe :) thanks ija :)

Pelik la...Memang pelik~

Td pg i hv the chance to clerk an aborigin ( org asli dlm kata yg lebih sopan), 21 years old, primigravida....her chief complaint, preterm labour....
But, what's interesting about our 'conversation' this morning was when it comes to Family History....
This girl told me, mak dia lahirkan kesemua 12 adik-beradik dia kat umah, disambut oleh ayah nye (wah,hebat sungguh pakcik tu, bole cnduct delivery more than medical students hv to conduct in O&G posting....)

Tp, that's not the story yg wat kita tertarik...it's about what the OA do to the placenta......

She said, " ada yg tanam uri tu, tp kebanyakan nye akan gantung uri tu kat luar rumah..."

I said,in cool tone, " Gantung? Gantung kat luar rumah....?" (though i was already shock at that time sbb uri tu kan ada bau yg pelik, ditambah dgn keadaan nye yg berdarah2 tu....xkan la nak wat 'perhiasan' kat depan umah...)

She anwered, "Mmg gantung kt luar umah...kat bawah pokok ke...kat mana2 la....janji uri tu digantung sblm matahari terbenam..."

I ask her again, "Knp kena gantung sebelum matahari tbenam..?"

She said, " kalau tak, ia akan makan nyawa ibu yg mengandung tu..." ( she means, the mother who hs just giv birth tu...)

I was quite terperanjat gak la dgr penjelasan dia...mcm mana lak uri tu nak makan nyawa mak tu..?
So, wanting to know more, i asked her further, " Pernah jadi ke? mak tu meninggal ke disebabkan uri tu..?"
Terasa mcm crita seram lak...takut gak la...

She said, " Adalah..dulu2....mula2 mak tu akan sakit dlam perut...lepas tu, lama kalu xdiubati, uri itu akan mkan la nyawa ibu itu...."

Huhuhuhuhuhuhu ~

I tried to reason out why do they hv such practise...Mungkin:

1. Diaorg gantung uri tu kat luar rumah- easy for them to see if the placenta is complete or not...bole tgk the chorion and amnion layers, & the cotyledons....any infarcted area or not.... kat luar umah kan lebih terang compared to dalam umah ( as u all know,they all live in very small houses but sooo many people inside one house) so, kt luar mst la lg senang nk wat inspction of the placenta...to ensure no retained placenta in the uterus..........

2. Diaorg gantung sebelum matahari tbenam- for the same reason, mtahari provides the light for them, especially in very rural area where they dont hv electricity...so,kalu check the placenta waktu malam, u may hv missed anything...maybe the membranes are ragged but u couldnt see them properly..so, there is risk of complications to develop post-partumly...

3. Diaorg percaya if tak gantung uri tu sblum matahari terbenam,mula2 ibu tu akan sakit dlm perut...lepas tu, lama2 kalu xdiubati, uri itu akan memakan nyawa ibu itu- where the complication arises as the retained parts of the placenta cn cause PPH, and as we all know, PPH is the number 1 cause of maternal death in Malaysia.....

Kalaulah kita semua dpt bg kesedaran pd mereka..
"bukan uri tu memakan nyawa ibu..tetapi, disebabkan ada lg bahagian uri tu yg tertnggal,ia akan mnyebabkan pendarahan slpas bersalin... yg mungkin membawa maut..."

They should be told that if not managed/treated properly ( stop the bleeding, resuscitation, transfussion etc),it will cause death.....they should not go to see bomoh or pawang coz they'll only jampi...nothing much for the woman if she is only treated with jampi....

Memang nampak pelik..Tp,itulah kehidupan....kita semua berbeza....

That's just my opinion....
What do u think....

XOXO, Me, differently...

A Very Interesting Monday

Hari ni mmg sgt menarik....

1. Setelah berusaha sedaya-upaya, CWU yg 'tercinta' berjaya diselesaikan, pd jam 6.30pg...hehe :) ngantok punya pasal, i went to sleep sampai kul 9.30am, so, pegi hosptal dh lewat sgt :P

2. Kmudian pegi antenat, cari2 pt utk cp dgn doc hakim pg esok....huhuhu :( xde pt pn kat antenat tu....

3. Ptg td, balik dgn jetul then mkn2 goreng pisang n ABC kat cafe :) hehe :P spanjang ptg tu kita mengusik dan menyakat cik jetul smpai merah padam mukanye.... sowi jetul...kta kan mmg suka kacau jetul....

4. Setelah berusaha gigih ( tipu betul, x gigih lgsg...) mlm td dpt la clerk sorg pt G5P4 at 38wks, GDM with breech presentation...itupun stelah saya menumpang waktu on-call nad ngan us serta meminjam pt farhah :) thanks a lot nad,us, farhah.....

5. The most interesting part of today is, i managed to see twin delivery- 1st cephalic presentatn, 2nd breech..the first baby dilahirkan dgn vacuum tp bukannye vacuum kiwi yg slalu nampak kat lowrisk tu.ni metal vacuum..mmg very interesting....however, i think sum complication may hv arise, as the review from paeds doc suspected fracture....huhu...harap xde jadi pape pd baby tu..the 2nd baby seems to be normal.....

6. Yg paling seronok about today is that, while waiting for the patient to giv birth to the twin, kitaorg duk berkumpul kat depan tu, sambil berborak2, duk mengata 'sedara-mara' siapa la yg jd 'nurse yg plg disygi' kat hi-risk tu...Lg syok bila Salam dtg membawa kcang nye and offer to everyone...hehehehe :P klakar sgt (",)

7. I'm supposed to be reading for my cp esok pg (takkkkuuuuuutttt nye!!) but, here i'm writing about my day...ok...ok...cukup la ni...kena semangat and baca for cp esok~

P/s- lagi kelakar bila kita dapat tau a 'new definition' of the all-time-favourite "CP"...hehe :)

XOXO, Me, "CP" baby.....

Bila kebosanan ditambah dgn kemalasan......

I was so bored tonite so i just surf the intnt to read anything interesting (i should be reading 10 teachers, tp disebabkan kemalasan melanda diriku, i choose to read ' stories', sebenarnye love stories and poems)... Then i came across this story... I think it's interesting, so i just put it up in here.. Hope u all will enjoy the story :)

Best Friends' LOVE STORY ...



10th grade:
As he sat there in the english class, he stared at the girl next to him. She was his so called 'best friend'. He stared at her and wished that she was his.
But she didn't notice him like that, and he knew it.
After class, she walked up to him and asked him for the notes she had missed the day before. He handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her and he wanted her to know that he doesnt want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy.....He just kept it in his heart....


11th grade:
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked him to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so,he did.
As he sat next to her on the sofa, he stared at her soft eyes, wishing that she was his.
After 2 hours, one movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.She looked at him, said 'thanks' and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.


Senior year:
The day before prom she walked to his locker.
"My date is sick..He's not gonna go" she said.
"Well, I didn't have a date," he replied..
in 7th grade, they made a promise that if neither of them had dates, they would go together- just as 'best friends'.
So they did.


Prom night:
They went together as 'best friends'....
After everything was over, he was standing at her front door step. He stared at her as she smiled at him and stared with her crystal eyes. Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave him a kiss on the cheek
He wanted her to be his, but she doesn't think of him like that, and he knew it. .
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.



Graduation day:
He watched as she went up on stage to get her diploma.
He wanted her to be his, but she doesn't think of him like that, and he knew it. .
Before everyone went home, she came to him in her smock and hat, and cried as he hugged her. Then she lifted her head from his shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks"..
She gave him a kiss on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.

On her wedding day:
He went to her wedding ceremony.
That girl is getting married.
He watched her married to another man and drive off to her new life..
He wanted her to be his, but she doesn't think of him like that, and he knew it. .
But before she drove away, she came to him and said "Thanks,you came!".
She kissed him on the cheek.
He wanted to tell her, he wanted her to know that he don't want to be just friends, he loves her but he's just too shy, and he doesnt know why.


A day passed, then a week, then a month, then years passed by...


He looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be his 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.

"I stare at him wishing that he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.I wish he would tell me he loved me!
'I wish I did too...' he thought to himself, and he cried....


So, what do u think.? As for me this story totally contradicts the well-known quote
that says " if u love sumone, let him be free...if he's for u, he'll come back to u..."
When u love sumone let him/her know, so that u'll not regret it in the future... Hehehe :)

XOXO, Me, still wondering....

Sabtu..Sabtu... Kesunyian di kala hari minggu ~

Arini sabtu yg tak productive...malas sgt nk wat pape slain tito :)

Tp, tghari tadi kuar makan lunch ngan hana & wani...

then, kuar smula gi ECM ngan hana, dh lama tak kuar berdua dgn hana sejak hana dgn 'ehem-ehem'...hehehe :) windu lak time dulu kitaorg slalu bsama....

Then balik dekat kul 4....maka bermula lah episod kesunyian kesorangan diriku di kala ujung minggu............ Hmmm, tak tau la knp tp kita mmg tak bole duk sorg2...tp mungkin jugak disebabkan apa yg terjadi sepanjang minggu ni..........
1. CP tak bergerak2 lagi..masih di takuk lama....

2. Case write up tak start pn lgi.....huhu...malas nye.....

3. Buku log tu byk nye yg masih kosong lagi, procedure tak wat, c-sec pn tak abis tgk...

4. The most important reason,hmmm...mungkin disebabkan apa y dah terjadi spjg mgu ni kot..

Org yg slalu ada di sisi di kala diri ini perlukan semangat, kini smakin berubah mjadi seorg yg sgt berbeza...

seolah2 dirinya melarikan diri dpdku...

seolah2 dirinya tidak mengenaliku...

seolahnya kami cuma kenalan biasa sedangkan dia teman karibku.............

Apakah diri ini telah terkasar bicara padanya...

Apakah diri ini telah mengguris hatinya...

Tolonglah....tolonglah kembali seprti asalnya, di mana kita boleh berbicara tentang apa sekali pun.......

kerana diri ini tak mampu utk terus begini...

kerana diri ini perlukan kata2 semangat darinya....
kerana dia lah yg sering memberikanku keyakinan dan kepercayaan utk terus memandang ke hadapan dan meneruskan perjuangan di kala diri ini dalam kegelapan..................................

There is one song " Careless Whisper" whick keep on playing in my head thru out this nite...hmm, lebih kurang sama je with my situation right now.........Kan???

Careless Whisper

I Feel So Unsure

As I take your hand

And lead you to the dance floor

As the music dies

Something in your eyes

Calls to mind a silver screen

And all its sad goodbyes

I'm never gonna dance again

Guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend

I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that I've been given

So I'm never gonna dance again

The way I danced with you...

Time can never mend

The careless whispers of a good friend

To the heart and mindIgnorance is kind

There's no comfort in the truth

Pain is all you'll find

Tonight the music seems so loud

I wish that we could lose this crowd

Maybe it's better this way

We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say

We could have been so good together

We could have lived this dance forever

But now who's gonna dance with me

Please stay.....

At this time around, i need my Mama coz she'll know what should i do.... but i dont want to bother her with my problems.........Mama, ayu rindu sgt pd mama...

So, what should i do...........

XOXO, Me, sunyi dalam keseorangan....

1st Time to Write :)

This is my first post for my bog :)

Yippiee!!! I have my own blog now.... To write what i feel, whenever i want to :)

But, for the first time, let it be sumthing sweet... hehehe :)

I'm thinking of writing this blog after reading Jetul's and Mijah' blogs just now :) sgt2 menarik sbb diaorg dpt kongsi what they feel and what happen in their lifewith others :) furthermore, it seems so menggoda, terutama nye pada saya yg sememangnye suka pada perkataan... Hehehe :)

So, here i am, writing for my blog for the first time :)

Just now i was reading my novel, the one that i keep on reading for more than 5 times, as i like the story, as well as the words inside it, hehehehe ;)

Tajuk nye " the fifth daughter"-

Basically it's about a girl, abandoned by her rich father, who has a bestfren ( a guy, of course)....she is always involved in trouble and he is always there to solve the problems for her....she doesnt realize that he loves her, until it is too late... then the conflicts arise, but, of course, the ending is that,the girl finds true love in him.. Wah,wah.. Sooo romantic... hehehe :)

This is from the novel -

Love is like wild rose briar....

Friendship is like the holly tree...

The holly is dark when the rose briar blooms...

But which will bloom most constantly...?

So, what do u think...

Do tell me your opinion, ok....

XOXO, Me, the first daughter :)