bila hati mula berkata2..

Maaf jika tulisan saya ni memualkan..
Tp mmg ini yg saya rasa...

Selepas 4 bulan diam membisu..
Saya sedar kat mana letak diri ini..
Tp..
Lgsg xdianggap kawan oleh  dirinya. .
Hmmm
Betapa terhina nya perasaan ini...

Bayangkan la..
Kita kawan dh lama..
Sejak dpd matriks lg..
Dan mgkin diri saya yg silap sbb menyimpan rasa pada dia sejak zaman 4th year medical student..

Tp....
Xkan la dia lgsg xbole nk ckp to me..personally..

Wada..saya xsuka awak..kita kawan saje ya...

Susah sgt ke..?
Berat sgt ke mulut tu nk ckp..?

Ni tidak...
Lgsg diam..senyap..sunyi..
Lgsg xnak jawab all my calls..all my messages...

And when i said i miss my bestfren..i really do...

Saya sedar siapa saya..
And i dont mind if we remain as friends..
But i am soooo hurt bila dia diam lgsg xckp apa...

Selepas kita berkawan more than 8years.
I think i deserve at least a frank conversation..

Just tell me the truth..

But dont do like this to me...

What do u have to lose if u tell me truth..?

Cakap aje..
Wada, kita dh ada GF..
Wada,kita dh nak kawen..
Wada, kita xpernah suka kat wada..

Do u think that if u keep silent all this while, i'll at last understand it all...?

NO!!

D answer is NO..

I can accept all those things but at least tell me...
I really can accept those things...
Tp...
Bila diam seribu bahasa...

Tau x..
Betapa sakit nye ati ni...?

Mst xtau kan..?
Sbb org mcm kamu kan jd pilihan smua org..
Ramai girls berebut kan kamu dpd dulu kan...
Even ramai dh makcik2 n pakcik2 yg berkenab nk wat kamu jd menantu..kan..?

So..with that, u hv d right to do watever u want to me la kan...?
No..u r wrong...

Sgt2 silap...

Yes we r friends..
We hv been friends for too long...
But it doesnt give u d right to break my heart...

Though i am d one yg salah cause i foolishly fall for u...
But at least, have d guts to say to me that we r only friends...

And thats all that i ever wanted from u....

Itu aje...
Betul..

So that i dont hv to think about a future with u..
So that i dont even have to consider u in my life..ever again...
Ever.....

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