Arini...day 1 @Ed..
Me...? Start tagging at triage..
Huu..
Org ckp triage cool..
Tp saya rasa kelam kabut..
Banyak nye admission seharian...
Uwaaa...
Knapakah saya jadi doktor..??saya terasa makin lama kesabaran makin berkurangan...
Walaupun.ilmu di dada sedikit cuma..namun....
Jeng jeng jeng...
Mampukah aku meneruskan posting ED ni dgn jayanye...?
P/s: esok tagging lg..so just tulis pendek je la ek..hihi
Maaf jika tulisan saya ni memualkan..
Tp mmg ini yg saya rasa...
Selepas 4 bulan diam membisu..
Saya sedar kat mana letak diri ini..
Tp..
Lgsg xdianggap kawan oleh dirinya. .
Hmmm
Betapa terhina nya perasaan ini...
Bayangkan la..
Kita kawan dh lama..
Sejak dpd matriks lg..
Dan mgkin diri saya yg silap sbb menyimpan rasa pada dia sejak zaman 4th year medical student..
Tp....
Xkan la dia lgsg xbole nk ckp to me..personally..
Wada..saya xsuka awak..kita kawan saje ya...
Susah sgt ke..?
Berat sgt ke mulut tu nk ckp..?
Ni tidak...
Lgsg diam..senyap..sunyi..
Lgsg xnak jawab all my calls..all my messages...
And when i said i miss my bestfren..i really do...
Saya sedar siapa saya..
And i dont mind if we remain as friends..
But i am soooo hurt bila dia diam lgsg xckp apa...
Selepas kita berkawan more than 8years.
I think i deserve at least a frank conversation..
Just tell me the truth..
But dont do like this to me...
What do u have to lose if u tell me truth..?
Cakap aje..
Wada, kita dh ada GF..
Wada,kita dh nak kawen..
Wada, kita xpernah suka kat wada..
Do u think that if u keep silent all this while, i'll at last understand it all...?
NO!!
D answer is NO..
I can accept all those things but at least tell me...
I really can accept those things...
Tp...
Bila diam seribu bahasa...
Tau x..
Betapa sakit nye ati ni...?
Mst xtau kan..?
Sbb org mcm kamu kan jd pilihan smua org..
Ramai girls berebut kan kamu dpd dulu kan...
Even ramai dh makcik2 n pakcik2 yg berkenab nk wat kamu jd menantu..kan..?
So..with that, u hv d right to do watever u want to me la kan...?
No..u r wrong...
Sgt2 silap...
Yes we r friends..
We hv been friends for too long...
But it doesnt give u d right to break my heart...
Though i am d one yg salah cause i foolishly fall for u...
But at least, have d guts to say to me that we r only friends...
And thats all that i ever wanted from u....
Itu aje...
Betul..
So that i dont hv to think about a future with u..
So that i dont even have to consider u in my life..ever again...
Ever.....
I worked nite ari kamis..postnite off jumaat..fullday off sbtu..
So...
Memandangkan jmaat tu ialah mama n abah's 28th anniversary...ija pun balik umah...
N we celebrated together...
Seronok...
N on sabtu..we went to basuh umah memandangkan perpind@han dirancang next week..hopefully...
N smua balik umah kepenatan tp kepuasan sbb umah dh bersih..ahaks..
Then today i am working..again..
Cuba kau ingat kembali
Masa lalu
Kasihku teguh buatmu
Walaupun terluka namun ku bersabar
Dan masih menyayangi
Andainya kau ada yang lain
Waktu ini
Apalah dayaku lagi
Terpaksalah aku membawa diriku
Dan hanya Tuhan saja yang mengerti....
a song that i sing masa drive td..walla..menusuk kalbu ku..if only i can make my heart forget everything..haisyhhh..
p/s: jika masa bole diulang semula..
my new obsession skrg...
google image on cupcakes..
haha..baru tau yg cupcakes r very cute ;)
suka tgk tp xsuka makan cupcake sbb ia sgt comel tapi d cream on top of it sgt la creamy nye..n i dont like cream..especially ada yg buat cream tawar n hambar plus ada gak yg berperasa lilin..
haha.
motif upload about cupcakes..?
saje je suka2..haha
plus..while tgh google dgn semangat nye, jmpa gamba ni with d quote on top of it.
so cute right ;)
cupcakes r love with icing on top..
haha..
maksudnye, kalau kta bg cupcake kat org, kta love org tu la..?
hihihi
abis tu..kalau kta bg gamba cupcake kat org..?
maksudnye apa..?
kta menggambarkan yg kta love org tu ke..?
hahaha.
me n my twisted mind.. :p
today kerja malam..
so...
i went out dating with mama pergi makan2 sampai perut kenyang...
disebabkan baby pegi keluar dgn kwn2 nye..
so it is just me n mama..
first kami makan takotao yg panas bulat2 tu...
nyum nyum...
then jalan2 smula..
then ternampak lak nyonya cendol original nye gambar dpn the garden recipe...tetiba drooling..
ajak mama masuk n we ordered cendol disitu..
mmg sedap la cendol nye...
rasa cendol yg pekat likat gitu..kalau patient diabetic, sure GM high giler la..haha..
disebabkan i was still kelaparan..and terasa nk makan daging..so...
ajak mama masuk little taiwan lak..
haha
sesuka suki ajak mama mkn mknn pelik2..
tp sedap la makan daging kat tripple beef treasure rice set dia..konyang perut i :p
maka bila dh kenyang perut...
mata ngantok...
maka kami pulang ke rumah dan saya pun zzzzzzz..
memandangkan saya keja malam..haha..
sekian cerita arini ;)
