My Days~

Windunye dah lama tak tulis blog ni...

Huhuhu ~ knon nye bz la... tp sbnrnye takde la bz sgt pun...

I'm just trying to 'focus' on study, coz exam is just around the corner...

But still, they are a lot of interesting things that happened last week :)

1. Last week was a very bz week...bz nak completekan logbook..mcm2 yg terpaksa dikorbankan (esp my precious sleeping time.huhuhu~ ) Alhamdulillah, dh submit pn yesterday...


2. The first time that i really sleep at the hospital...( sblm ni pernah skali stay kat low-risk tu, tp, xtido pn...hehehe :p main2, borak2, gelak2 je spjg malam while waiting for the patient to deliver...tp last saturday night, i sleep kat musolla low-risk sbb xde org nk bersalin pn...)


3. First time in my life, bila kita tgk 2 jenazah baby yg baru lahir...siap dikapan...ada kat hi-risk...
Huhuhu :( sedih sgt2.... coz, baby spatutnye lahir dgn mbawa cahaya kegembiraan for the parents and the family...tp, aritu, ada 2 intrauterine death, then bersalin by SVD.... sedih sgt...i was very sad ( n seram sgt tgk ada 2 jenazah baby kat tempat baby tu), and i couldn't imagine how the mothers felt........... Ini semua dugaan Allah...kita tak tau, but He knows the best for us, kan..? Sblm ni pn, kita ada dgr, if a baby dies, then the baby will wait for the parents kat syurga nnt...kita tak tau sgt, tp, for those yg tau, plz let me know, ya?

4. While waiting for doing CP, there was one Chinese man, yg baru je lpas tgk wife dia bersalin kan anak sulung diaorg...He was very excited at that time, dia sgt2 teruja to see pengorbanan istri dia, yg sgup susah payah lahirkan anak mereka... This is quoted from him, " Smua lelaki spatutnye tgk istri bersalin...baru la tau btapa besar pengorbanan istri tu... Yg penting, istri dan anak sy slamat..." Wah...best nye...best sgt if dapat a husband who really appreciate the wife...I'm hoping for one in the future, insya-Allah..hehehe :P doa byk2 k....

5. A lot of other small2 things that matter to me... Betapa penting nye nilai persahahabatn... Betapa tingginya nilai kejujuran... Betapa bermakna ny kasih sayang dalam hidup ini... But, let these all be memories, that i'll treasure for all my life :)


Btw, malam ni, my ward grup, (me, Jetul, Azi, Nizam, Syaify, Fadhil, Hazri) nak pegi makan2 kat santai...hehehe :) to celebrate the time we hv spent together at the ward...melalui susah senang bersama, dlm mengharungi kesukaran zaman O&G bersama2 :) hehehehe :) i'm looking forward for tonite....

Hehehe :)

Btw, i'm missing my family sooooooooooooo much...tak sabar nak balik umah after exam ni :)

But, yg penting, kena study rajin2 utk exam ni... Chiayoq!!!!

P/s: My motivator, awak tu dh terlebih pandai, bagi la kita kepandaian, serta kerajinan awak tu...hehehehe :) n, keep on being my motivator, k?

XOXO, Me, Study & strive for exam....

Why...oh why...?

Pernah tak terasa macam satu dunia ni sedang menghakimi kita..?
Pernah tak terasa mcm org lain sdg menghukum diri kita...?
Pernah tak terasa macam nak lari drpd dunia ni...atau pn jd invisible..?
So that takde org bole nampak kita...takde org bole jumpa kita...takde org bole tegur kita....?
Pernah tak terasa nak tinggalkan segala2nye...? Just give up everything...?
Pernah tak terasa macam takde sape pn yg bole faham diri ini ( except for mama...love u very2 much, mama)...

That's what i feel right now..............
That's what i feel right now.............
I'm helpless...living in this whole wide world....
I'm helpless and alone.....
Dont know what to do...
Dont know what to say....
Sedih sgt2...........sedih sgt2.............

Mama...
ayu rindu sgt2 pada mama...
ayu nak sgt2 mama ada dgn ayu skrg ni...
ayu nak sgt2 duk dgn mama skrg, coz ayu tau, cuma mama aje yg dpt faham ayu..
Cuma mama aje yg bole ubatkan hati ayu ni...
Cuma mama aje yg bole wat ayu kembali seperti sediakala...
Sbb hanya mama aje yg tau apa yg ayu rasa...
Sbb hanya mama aje yg tau cmne nk rawat hati ayu yg tak tenteram ini....

Lagu Jamal Abdillah ni really potrays what i feel right now........

Di dalam suasana indah ini
Dadaku menahan sedih pilu
Terkenang dikau tiada
Untuk bersama diriku
Sedang orang lain bergembira
Ku menumpang senyum di balik duka
Terbayang wajahmu di muka pintu
Bagai menyatakan sesuatu....
Apakah di saat ini
Ada rindu menyentuh hatimu
Bayangkan aku di sini
Menghulurkan salam untukmu
Maafkan segala-galanya
Keterlanjuran tak dilaku
Berderai airmata tak ku sedar
Mengenang kesilapan masa lalu
Di saat ini ku rasa insaf
Oh Tuhan ampunilah dosaku

XOXO, Me, Dont know what to think

Weekend oh weekend ku~

Arini mmg sgt best...hehe :) coz it started with sumthing yg sgt2 menarik...kenangan satu malam yg pnuh gelak ketawa...coz what happenend malam td mmg syok..Best sgt2...smpai tido pn kita asyik teringat kan apa yg berlaku malam td...hehehe :) tp, bak kata jetul mucuk, "rahsia......."
As for this morning, cm biasa la...bgn dgn penuh kebahagiaan slepas dpt berbual pjg dgn mama kat fon...then, pegi mkn lunch dgn nad...hehehe :) mulanye ajat ati nak mkn kat pak akub patin house....tp disebabkan kedai tu tutup, kami pergi la lunch kat sara thai...huhu ~
Then gi ECM lak dgn nad...jalan2 n shopping~ Best sgt :)
Tp, malam ni belum ada pape plan...nak ajak sape lak nk gi kuar makan dinner malam ni, eh..?
Hmm...nad dh bg green light nk kua makan malam...tp nak ajak kwn2 lain gak la... the more the merier, kn..? hehehe :)

Me, XOXO, rigth here waiting...

Pelangi..oh Pelangi ~

Saya sepatutnye membaca buku skrg, tp tak dpt tumpukan perhatian la...

Hmmm...knp eh...?? I think i know why...

Td tiba2 aje terdengar lagu "Pelangi Petang" by Def-Gab-C

(yg asalnye dinyayikan oleh Sudirman)..........

Ni liriknye~

Ku meniti awan yang kelabu...

Ku tempuhi lorong yang berliku...

Mencari sinar yang menerangi, kegelapanku...

Ku percaya pasti suatu masa...

Sang suria kan menyinar jua...

Membawa harapan yang menggunung, bersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi...

Tak bercahaya namun kau berseri..

Tapi cukup menghiburkan, hati ini....

Seharian waktu bersamamu

Tak terasa saat yang berlalu

Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti, pergi jua...

Semua kata2 dlm lagu ni mmg betul, sgt tepat dlm menafsir perjalanan kita skrg ni....

Mmg sgt menusuk jiwa.........

Tak tau la nak ckp cmne dah, tp it suddenly comes to my mind,what we hv now is just like pelangi petang kan........

We hv fun together,we spend our time just to do silly things, but we really enjoy ourself......

Tp nnt, bila dah abis study, all these will be a history for us.......Huhu~

Sedihnye bila pikir that we just hv about 2 years left to b together.........

P/s :

I think i hv 'a pelangi petang'..sumone who's always there for me.......

Tp bila difikirkan semula,kita rasa sedih sgt2...tak tahu mcm mana nak buang kesedihan ni jauh2....

Sbb...

Nnt bila masanye sampai, mstilah dia akan kawin...kan?

Bila dia dah kawin of course la isteri dia takkan kasi kitaorg baik cm skrg...kan?

Even kita pn for sure akan menjauhkan diri dpd dia bila dia dh kawin,tkkan la kita nk jd penyibuk dlm rumahtangga org....

tp....who would be my motivator then...?

I dont think I cn find anyone better in such a limited time...

then, at that time, siapa akan ada di sisi kta, sprt dia slalu lakukan skrg...

So, bole tak kita nak wish..?

I wish for " Pelangi pagi,petang,siang,malam.."

Plz.....................

XOXO, Me, wishing for the rainbow..

A day of nothingness~

Hmm...smalam malam kita baru smpai Kuantan...bersama smangat yg berkobar2 utk menempuh kehidupan dlm posting O&G yg tgal bbrapa ari aje lg ni....dah recharge smula stelah spending the weekend with my family~
Tp arini....huhuhu..kekecewaan melanda semula...
Wahai posting O&G, adakah anda mmg ditakdirkan utk meruntun semangat ku...
adakah aku yg tak cukup kuat utk menempuh posting ini....
betapa payah nya buatku utk meneruskan langkah ini...
ditambah dgn rasa kekecewaan dan kesedihan....apa yg aku mampu lakukan lagi....
Takpelah, ada 2 minggu lagi...
Takpelah, ada byk masa lg....
Takpelah, ada peluang lagi....
Tapi buat hari ini, aku terasa aku telah kalah dgn prasaan sedih dan kecewa ini...setelah apa yg kuharapkan berjalan lancar, tak membuahkan hasil sperti yg aku idamkan.....
Mungkin esok adalah hari yg cerah buatku~