what's your ringtone...?

Since this phone sudah ada internt guna wifi kat umah je pn sbnr nye..) saya semakin rajin nk update blog ni...so, arini mmg asyik cari lagu2 utk wat ringtone.hehe.. So.. Ni la kedudukan carta ringtone saya...ahaks.

Mama& Abah - Terukir di bintang... Dakdik masyam n ija musyuk - Talking to the moon.. Dan lagu yg xtukar2 dpd aritu, Tentang Dia.. (or should i change it to lagu adele yg baru tu, set fire to the rain...) And general nye,sapa2 yg call,akan kuar lagu untuk dia (sleeq feat najwa latiff).. Haha..ter-obsess dgn segala mcm lagu yg didengar di rdio

Pics masa mkn ns ayam penyet sedap

dgn family last week..

cuti sehari di minggu pertama tagging di ortho~

Hari ni adalah cuti sehari dlm seminggu utk my first week of tagging di ortho..tempoh 2 weeks ifor tagging kat sini terasa lama berlalu..tp at least dpt cuti sehari...alhamdulillah... So the whole day of today adalah hari utk bersama keluarga tersayang...yahoo!!!! Seronok sgt....arini mmg sibuk bershopping sepanjang ari...haha.. And now it is proven that i like to spend my money dgn hebat nya... Dulu2 pernah la terpikir,xkan la bole abis duit seribu sehari..tp skrg it is proven...it isas easy as 1,2,3..haha. Tp ok la..lepas ni,wadalila,kena la besabar tunggu gaji bulan depan pulak untuk dibelanjakan dgn boros nya...haha.. P/s:esok keja lg...still tagging day7..kena la jd rajin camni..sbb nk gaji bulan dpn utk dishoppinhkan dgn hebat nya...ahaks :-P Oh ya..saya nk beli kreta baru..haha..rasanye nk beli kreta sama mcm kreta putih org yg berada di sana...haha..kta nak colour putih gak o_O sbb colour itam xde..so kita amikla colour putih jua..haha :-D

dear kamu..

Di kala dirimu terasa seperti giving up everything,just plz remember,i am always here...if u want to let all go,i'll always be here for you.. Tak kisah la kalau awk nk let everything go,i'll always support u...i'll always be here to be the one yg terus menerus menyokong awk no matter what..tak kisah la if all the world is against u,i'll always support you.. If u need sumone to listen to u, i am always here to u.. If u need sumone to just be there,and be silent with u,i am here gor u... If u need sumone to doa kan supaya dipermudahkan semuanya for u,of course i do all those for u.. If u need sumone to be around and u can be ur whole self again,i am here for u... If u need sumone to always think only of good things of u.hey, mana ada pape yg tak best tentang awak kan, saudara.. ^_^ And if u need to be urself,no worry,u cn be urself all u want coz for me, i havent met with any guy as good,funny,bijaksana, amusing and as amazing as urself... But plz,dont be sad..jgn la cakap seolah nye semua nye ini unpredictable..no matter what happen,i will always be here..no matter what..no matter when... Coz bila awk sedih,kita yg sejauh ini,pasti jua terasa perit nya~

Arini day 5 of tagging in ortho.. Setakat ni,rasanye ortho la posting yg paling selesa..dpt rehat masa lunch..sempat makan lagi..burp stiap ari sbb mkn lunch smpai kenyang..hehe.. Best la posting ortho ni..happy sbb dpt seposting dgn rakan2 yg best..bergelak ketawa di kala bekerja.. Dan saban hari,di kala driving balik umah dan mengantuk,ada yg sanggup teman kan..hee..bercakap2 sampai ke umah so that saya xtertido ms drive back home...wee..thanks a lot ya org tu ^_~ Tapi arini..di kala berborak2 dgn nye..terasa ada sesatu yg merunsingkan nye...atau mungkin diri ini saja yg terlebih fikir..hmmm. Di kala dia berkata,"wada bila nk kawin.."dan saya mnjwb seleas kawan nye kawin.. (kebetulan waktu tu dia kuar dgn kwn2 dia... Bila dia ckp,pening memikirkan masa hadapan..sbb dia xtau apa akan terjadi lepas ni..xtau apa akan jd..kalau sesuatu yg buruk menimpanya... Uhu..ada sesuatu dlm kata2nya yg membuatku terkedu...hmm.sebegini lama ku kenali dia..seolah mya diaada sesuatu nlk diberitahu pdku..sedangkan aku lgsg xdpt nk meneka..langsung..saya sgt clueless saudar..seriously.. Hmmmm

Kisah org lain dan saya mengisahkan nye ~

selalu nye, i write pasal jiwa ku yg mengada2 and banyak kerenah in this blog of mine..kan..?

so today, ehem, saya terasa terpanggil la nk crita pasal kehidupan org2 lain..saya sebagai pemerhati, diharapkan dpt diambil iktibar ttg smua ni...bukan nk mengaibkan..cuma nk org smua ambil yg jernih..buang yg keruh...

(oh, skrg saya dlm posting O&G, so, smua ni kisah di dalam O&G...)

CERITA 1..
A girl, 19y/o MALAY female...presented with high blood pressure + an episode of seizure (sawan) at her college..brought to emergency dept in hospital...
tau tak sesuatu..? UPT (urine pregnancy test)stat was positive!!!
she denies that she is pregnant..
on further questioning, rupa nye, dia mmg dh tau she is pregnant, when she has no menses for few months..
the father of the fetus..?she claims of being raped..but she tells no one...
but she has a boyfriend in the college..so, xtau la if that boyfriend yg rape her or other guy..or if it is a consensual SI but because of afraid of telling others yg dia dah terlanjur, she instead told us it was a rape..

i am not going to judge or mengaibkan dia..i just want those who read this, tau apa yg dirasakan oleh her MOTHER...

the mother is  a single mother...just divorced with the husband after years of separation with the ex husband..the marriage was a disaster, to the mother and the children..
the patient has 3 siblings, one elder sister and a younger one...
the mother has to work all the time to support them all..
the patient was sent to college, in hope that she can help the mother once she finish her study...
her elder sister is also studying in a local uniiversity...

so, when the patient was admitted to our LABOUR ROOM OBSERVATION ward, the mother was soooo shocked...she came the next day..
crying
and crying
and crying....

when i came with my MO to explain further on the patient condition, i can feel how frustrated she was...
her eyes were red..
the daugher just berpaling muka dpd memandang the mother
in my heart, "how could she do this to the mother.."

the mother said to us...
"saya ni ibu tunggal..ingaat kan anta dia belajar tinggi2 dpat la bantu saya..senangkan idup kami sekeluarga..
saya ni sorg kena sara dia,kakak dia pn tgh belajar...adik dia skolah lagi...
ini tidak, saya tak sangka dia jadi macam ni...
sekarang apa bole saya buat?mana saya nk letak muka..
kalau betul la macam dia ckp, org aniaya dia (merujuk kpd the pt punye statement that she is being raped..) kenapa xberitau sesiapa?kenapa biar diri kena aniaya..?kenapa xbgtau saya..?kakak dia ke..?cikgu dia ke..?lapor polis ke..?kenapa diam kan saje sampai jd macam ni..?
sekarang dh jd macam ni, apa saya bole buat..?
bole tak saya mintak gugur kan aje kandungan ni...?saya dah tak tau nak wat apa.."
and she cries some more...

and the girl dont even cry when the mother was sooo sad..
ntah la..dia cuma memalingkan muka with an expressionless face..
ntha la..

me, the one standing there, hampir menitiskan air mata sbb i can feel betapa pilu nye si ibu ketika itu...
tapi anak nye, ntah la...

so this make me think..
ok, kalau kita dah bersalah, we still has the room utk menyesal kan..tp kenapa si anak langsung tak berasa sedih dgn apa yg berlaku..betapa remuknye hati si ibu dgn apa yg berlaku...jika benar she was raped, she will cry also with the mother,kan...?or if dia dah rasa bersalah, insaf dgn apa yg berlaku, pastinye dia pn merasa betapa pilu nye si ibu tu,kan..?
or is it just me...?
but from what i can see, dia langsung xde sekelumit kekesalan..as if it was nothing....
ntahla...
but what i really feel at that time, i will never do this to my mother...NEVER...
i will try as much as i can, not to break my mother's heart..not to make her cry because of my doings~


CERITA 2
a 22y/o, single,Malay lady,
post SVD (spontaneous vaginal delivery )day 2..
stillbirth...
still in the ward as her blood pressure was still high...tinggi melambung2..tapi asymptomatic of impending eclampsia..
during my morning review, she kept on asking me, when can she goes home..
"saya nak tgk kubur anak saya..."
and this is her story..
the baby was an extramarrital product of conception..the boyfriend run away when he knew that she is pregnant...
she came back to her hometown to give birth..and did not expect that the baby will not survive....
she repeatedly said that, "saya tahan je telinga ni selama saya mengandung..org mengata saya ni mengandung anak luar nikah,saya tahan je..sbb saya nk jaga anak ni..tapi tiba2 jadi macam ni...penat aje saya tahan smua ni...tiba2 jadi mcm ni...penat je saya dgr kutukan org slama ni..."
and me, being the one yg sgt tak tau how to response, just manage to answer that, "semua yg berlaku ada hikmah..Allah lebih mengetahui.."
and she kept on saying, "penat je saya mengandung slama ni, saya tahan kan aje ckp2 org slama saya mengandung ni, tiba2 baby saya xselamat.."
seolah nye dia tak dpt terima takdir-Nya..seolah nya lebih baik dia 'buang' the baby awal2 sbb at last the baby succumb jugak...

ntahla...saya cuma mampu berdiri dan mendengar,berulang kali menyuruh dia bersabar for all these..dan berulang kali mengingatkan dia yg smua yg terjadi ada hikmahnya dan Dia Maha Mengetahui semua yg terjadi...saya tak tau nk cakap apa lg...itu je yg termampu.....

banyak lagi nak crita tp penat menulis dan lapar pulak perut bunchit ni..haha..bubye..nak kuar makan dgn mama lak pas ni ;)

Lalalala lagi~

can say i am living in my own fantasy life..
can say that i am overly perasan and all..
but how can i resist smiling all day long when sumone says,

" ingat dekat ke ##### dengan melaka...." sedangkan hometown nye bukan la di melaka ni tapi negeri di sebelah melaka, di kala dia planning nak balik kampung during the cuti end posting yg seminggu itu....

" nak pergi melaka la..nak mkan ikar bakar.." sedangkan baru je makan ikar bakar last week,kan..?haha..ingat kita tak tau la eh..? ;)

"nak gi melaka water world la.." haha..kita yg duk melaka ni pn xpenah pegi lg..tp, nak ikut!!!!

and paling klakar is when i said, "tapi kita tak nk drive tau.."sambil menyuruh nya yg drive..
and the answer is, "ok..tapi bawak kreta lain la.." sbb kreta baru nye ditinggalkan kat appartment hospitalnye sbb kan jauh ##### dengan melaka ..hehe.. ^_^ 

haha..melaka ni mmg la best, encik tp, nape nak gi melaka lak ni..?
gi langkawi la..bole shopping banyak2..ngeh ngeh ngeh.. =P

p/s: kalau betul dia dtg mlaka mcm mana..?dah la dtg dgn adik nye lak tu...owh owh owh...